Category: Feelings…
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Once again…!
Last night, once again
You came visiting in my dreams
If only I had stretched my hand
I could’ve had your feel!
You were there, once again
As vivid as always
To get over it, and you
It’s going to take me days!
I was wide awake in the dark
Tears rolling down my face
Mind told me it was just a dream
Heart, still looking for your trace!
Whatever it was, that was said
Still lingers in my mind
But to listen to it all over again
I want to sleep and press rewind!
Not knowing the real way ahead
I just let a deep sigh escape
Not looking forward to the might I’ll need
To get back to a normal state!
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Letting go….!
Repeatedly you try
To find it where you lost it
You keep turning back
Still finding it hard to quit
Those doors closed long back
When will you finally admit
The genuineness that you want
They cannot ever commit
No, they will not give you
The kind of love you want
No matter what you try
Their unkind ways will haunt
You couldn’t change them then
How do you think you’ll now
Try to atleast not let them
Trample your heart anyhow
So, gather up your courage
And take that first bold stride
Leave behind what broke you
Find peace on the other sideFor in letting go, there’s freedom
A path unbound and true
Where self-love will embrace you
In ways you never knew -
My Baba… My Guru… My All…!
I sit at Your feet, mesmerised
YOU are my Baba, I’m Your child
Fondly, as YOU caress my head
All my fears I start to shed
Looking at YOUR love-filled eyes
Deepest of my anxiety dies
YOUR one look cleanses me
YOU hold my hand and I feel free
YOUR enigmatic smile
and – when YOU lovingly say “My child”
Makes my emotions run wild
My tears flow incessant, but I feel mild
YOU are my Baba, my strength, my all
At YOUR lotus feet, I repeatedly befall…
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YOU… me…!
YOU have magical ways
However gloomy the days
YOU bless me somehow
Through cracks, YOUR light YOU allow…
Mysteriously and without a sound
Sometimes like a thought profound
Quietly amongst my lows
An encouraging idea YOU throw…
Enigmatically smiling as YOU do
A new path YOU bring to my view
Lifting me from the misery
YOU save me from possible injury…
Enwrapping me in YOUR gracious care
YOU caution me when I am unaware
At times when I cry helplessly
YOU stroke my head most tenderly…
In times of fear YOU hold my hand
In the toughest situations, YOU send a plan
In inertia, YOU become my energy
YOU reassure me to calm my anxiety….
So thankful that YOU are in my life
For YOUR grace I am alive
Just gratitude flows seamlessly
Please keep loving me endlessly…!
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Finally…!
To those places and people, she finally turned her back
Her mind strong, yet heart full of emotions,
With her memories packed she finally left
With a conviction that she never knew she had!
She finally ceased to think about that and them
Had mulled too long over unimportant things
Now was the time to live the decision
She knew she was right, didn’t bother those who condemned!
As if in a trance, yet so sure
Watching her own life as a reel
So strong, and so very brave
She knew her decision was true and pure!
It took her long, every drop of courage
She knew she might be judged
And questioned and suggested
Yet she did what was needed to undo the damage!
She left where she didn’t belong
No malice, just good wishes in return
Finally, she wanted to be on her own
Finally free, to sing her own song…
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“We do“…!
Who will understand
Probably no one
Why I feel so lonely
After I have your vision…
Who will be able to replicate
The warmth I feel
There is no duplicate
The love there is ideal…
Who will bring that joy
The smile you bring is unparallel
The end to my gloom
Only in your visions dwell…
Who will ever know “us”
There’ll never be a chance
For when we say “we do”
It only just feels, in a trance…!
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Grief…!
The gush of grief came upon me
Before I knew it had me engulfed
Trapped in my misery so terribly
I was left so scared as a result!
My own sighs seemed surprising
I didn’t know I could reach this spot
The tears flowing incessantly
Had me thinking how I reached this rot!
Breathing was hard between my sobs
My heart felt crushed with pain
Every gasp seemed a plea for life
But nonetheless – it was in vain!
No way looked worthy
No one seemed to care
No helping hand, held out
The world kept moving
All around me
No one seemed to bother
That I was left out!
The gloom hit hard
Nothing seemed good
Even my shadow seemed to have left my side
The dream that someone will care to stop
Seemed so silly and hurt me deep inside!
The grief surrounded me from all directions
There seemed no possible escape
The burden of my thoughts was so much
Taking even a step had me precipitate!
The high tides overpowered me
I tried, but then gave up
This grief will have me down
Till I muster the strength to swim back up!
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Betrayal…!
Betrayal is hard
It comes from those close
Tears and pain
Is what always follows…
Betrayal brings sorrow
It leaves one in utter grief
No clue of why it was so
One is left in disbelief…
Betrayal brings sheer surprise
One is left totally shaken
What went wrong and where
With such thoughts one gets overtaken…
Betrayal brings depression
Everything looks black
Who can one trust then?
One’s own when in it lacked…
Betrayal sadly also brings self-doubt
One starts questioning self
Those self-committing feelings
Get very tough to be shelved…
Betrayal brings change too
One decides not to be fooled again
The once forgiving heart
Closes doors on everyone then…
Why does betrayal exist
Why can’t people stay true
What do they gain from backstabbing,
Don’t they fear they can receive it too!!!
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In love with “love”
Be in love with “love”
It’s a feeling so sweet
When you feel loved
Every moment is a treat!
Be in love with “love”
The world seems a paradise
With care and passion
When your days get comprised!
Be in love with “love”
The sweet nothings too
Become so meaningful
And erase all blues!
Be in love with “love”
Together with someone
Dream the would be(s)
For life’s future turns!
Be in love with “love”
And live the joys it brings
For however long it lasts
A merry melody you sing!
Be in love with “love”
It may not last for ever
But its lingering fragrance
In your heart will cease never!
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Only Love…!
This is life, it will be sudden, it will be harsh
In exchange for your goodness, you might be served trash!
This is life, it will hurt, it will give blows
In return for your helpfulness, you might get only foes!
This is life, it will shock, it will rip your plans
For all your kind behaviour, you might get only scams!
This is life, it will hit, it will rock your boat
Work as you much, it won’t let you stay afloat!
It will continue to test, without allowing any respite
One blow after the other, will make you question your might!
But, no one, and absolutely nothing can beat you,
Till, you continue to care and just stay true,
Forget what makes you weak & tap on your faith,
Do what you feel is right, spread only love, and never hate!
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