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I call YOU…!
Please come and hold my hand
As I walk this rocky road
My feet are stumbling as I carry
This unbearable load…
Eyes are welling up with tears
My breath feels heavy and rugged
Mind is full of doubts and fears
My state of mind is worried…
Heart feels weak and I don’t know
How will I fare this test
YOUR name I chant along
As I tread, forgetting all the rest…
Just YOU my Baba, my saviour, my guide
Can help me along this way
Please calm my unsettled mind
And hold me strong, for I sway…
I know YOU are there for sure
I know YOU won’t let me fall
Come, hold me in YOUR strong embrace
And make me strong and tall…
With YOU along I can brave the fears
With YOU I can pass this test
In YOUR light I can defeat this gloom
And put my anxiety to rest…
Waiting for YOUR light to shine
For YOUR strength to give me peace
Please come and hold me my SAI
I call YOU with every inch of me and piece!
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No more…!
I act not in contempt, but in pain
For all my efforts, went in vain
To make you realise, what you meant to me
In my closest circle, I always kept thee…
I have no pretence nor know how to hide
The heartbreak you gave by shirking aside
My genuine heart and my truest feelings
I have no more strength to keep it going…
I have no more courage to carry it on
Only my shoulders to weigh it upon
For you never showed or acted like you care
Even when I had my heart to you bare….
I probably deserve this for some act of mine
So, I’ll just accept it and no longer whine
I have no more strength to bear it any more
You stay happy though – that is what I wish for…! -
A promise to myself…!
My heart rebels,
Waging war against my mind.
A voice within screams,
Leaving reason far behind.Emotions rise,
Unruly, wild, untamed.
Desires burn,
And judgment fades in flame.This roaring voice within me grows,
Leaving me fragile, weak, and cold.
I fight against its endless pull,
Seeking strength in whispers bold.I swore I’d never walk that road,
Yet my heart still leads me there.
The echoes of the past grip tight,
I scream, but they still linger near.I draw myself a little closer,
Wrapping my heart in a gentle embrace.
“I won’t let you get hurt again,” I whisper,
As I wipe the tears from my face. -
Please Stop…!
There is no meaning in it, my mind says
Heart still tries to find something
Why don’t you stop visiting me?
For my heart then likes to cling…
There is no joy now in my reverie
Heart still tries to find a smile
Why don’t you stop looking back?
For my heart then follows your miles…
There is no purpose now in keeping you
Heart still tries to hold & cherish
Why don’t you stop bothering my thoughts?
For my heart then starts to wish…
There is no reality now in you & me
Heart still tries to be hopeful
Why don’t you stop calling out my name?
For my heart then feels a pull…
Please stop to say, or smile or do
Please stop to even look my way
Please stop to even visit my dreams
Just stop I plead, don’t come my way…
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BABA – never enough of YOU…!
I look at YOU to my heart’s content
But still, it’s never enough
I chant YOUR name night and day
Whether the going is smooth or rough…
I quench my thirst with YOUR pious name
But still, it never goes
Endlessly I have YOUR sight
It truly ends my woes…
I see YOU here, and I see YOU there
But still, I’m never satisfied
I search for YOU everywhere
In this world so big and wide…
I know YOU are the wirepuller
And nothing is there which YOU can’t do
But every time I see YOUR magic
I wonder how it can be true…
I know YOU me love very much
But every day I want more than before
Please never cease amazing me
For I crave for more and more…
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Once again…!
Last night, once again
You came visiting in my dreams
If only I had stretched my hand
I could’ve had your feel!
You were there, once again
As vivid as always
To get over it, and you
It’s going to take me days!
I was wide awake in the dark
Tears rolling down my face
Mind told me it was just a dream
Heart, still looking for your trace!
Whatever it was, that was said
Still lingers in my mind
But to listen to it all over again
I want to sleep and press rewind!
Not knowing the real way ahead
I just let a deep sigh escape
Not looking forward to the might I’ll need
To get back to a normal state!
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The Silent Strength…!
Do you cry when you lose your leaves?
Seeing them fallen, do you badly grieve?
How do you still stand so tall?
What makes you go through the harsh fall?
One by one when they fly away
Do you call them – to pause, to stay?
With each leaf falling does your heart ache?
How do you handle – the multiple heartbreaks?
Those which get carried away far
Do you ever forget them, or do they leave a permanent scar?
Those which lay fallen at your own feet
Do they console you when you incessantly weep?
And when finally, you stand barren and alone
After losing those from you who had grown
How do you cope with being cold and lone?
Do the visions of your lush green, to your mind get thrown?
And then the long wait, to have them back
What strength do you have, to nurture them back?
Knowing very well, they will leave you too!
How do you love them, knowing they’ll too give you the blues!
Salute to your strength and unconditional love
How you nurture and selfishness you crush
You’re so mighty and so very impressive
Silently, you endure, making me so pensive!
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Letting go….!
Repeatedly you try
To find it where you lost it
You keep turning back
Still finding it hard to quit
Those doors closed long back
When will you finally admit
The genuineness that you want
They cannot ever commit
No, they will not give you
The kind of love you want
No matter what you try
Their unkind ways will haunt
You couldn’t change them then
How do you think you’ll now
Try to atleast not let them
Trample your heart anyhow
So, gather up your courage
And take that first bold stride
Leave behind what broke you
Find peace on the other sideFor in letting go, there’s freedom
A path unbound and true
Where self-love will embrace you
In ways you never knew
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