You always just told me what I am not
Never appreciated what I’ve got
I kept on trying to prove my worth
Precious years of life now seem wasted as dirt
Compromising what was important to me
I tried to be what you wanted me to be
Knowing otherwise, but still agreeing with you
Just to get some peace in lieu
Fighting with self many a times
To make you happy I tried to mime
Compromised with values close to my heart
Gradually from myself I grew apart
Losing my self-worth happened with time
Emotions became super sublime
Angry at the world, angry at my God
I only worked towards getting your nod
No meaning was there till I realized
For whose peace did I sacrifice?
When those whom I thought I am trying to please
Are still thinking that I did nothing supreme!
Woken from a dream with a strong jolt
I have to put those, behind a bolt
Not to let them steal anymore
My smile, my peace, my life – like before
Need to restart, I know it will take me long
– Before I can write a new life song
Bit by bit, piece by piece
I will ultimately find my peace
No matter what it takes, how tough it will be
I will regain my self-esteem eventually
No more trying hard to be the good one
After all, to prove me wrong was your fun!
So even while parting I’ll give, not take
Let you be a martyr for your happiness’ sake
I choose my peace above proving to be good
For I know I’ve tried as best as I could…
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