Author: Sonal
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Everlasting…!
Life with you is like a rollercoaster
And sadly, I don’t like them
Too much at stake when the lows hit
My emotions go into a mayhem…
I tried hard against my might
To not quit and give in to fears
But you defeated me every time
And always left my eyes with tears…
I made efforts to understand
The thrill you get by being your way
But the loneliness which you leave me with
Surpass the joys that you bring someday…
I tried to toughen my weak heart
To handle the pain which comes with you
But the sobs of heartbreak are deafening
The wounds you give are tough to sew…
My heart seeks out the permanent
The comfort of your hand to hold
Not sometimes, but everyday
I want your voice, your sight to behold…
My soul is on a frantic search
For the love that will give me peace
Not fleeting like a shooting star
But an embrace that will never cease…
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My Baba… My Guru… My All…!
I sit at Your feet, mesmerised
YOU are my Baba, I’m Your child
Fondly, as YOU caress my head
All my fears I start to shed
Looking at YOUR love-filled eyes
Deepest of my anxiety dies
YOUR one look cleanses me
YOU hold my hand and I feel free
YOUR enigmatic smile
and – when YOU lovingly say “My child”
Makes my emotions run wild
My tears flow incessant, but I feel mild
YOU are my Baba, my strength, my all
At YOUR lotus feet, I repeatedly befall…
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YOU… me…!
YOU have magical ways
However gloomy the days
YOU bless me somehow
Through cracks, YOUR light YOU allow…
Mysteriously and without a sound
Sometimes like a thought profound
Quietly amongst my lows
An encouraging idea YOU throw…
Enigmatically smiling as YOU do
A new path YOU bring to my view
Lifting me from the misery
YOU save me from possible injury…
Enwrapping me in YOUR gracious care
YOU caution me when I am unaware
At times when I cry helplessly
YOU stroke my head most tenderly…
In times of fear YOU hold my hand
In the toughest situations, YOU send a plan
In inertia, YOU become my energy
YOU reassure me to calm my anxiety….
So thankful that YOU are in my life
For YOUR grace I am alive
Just gratitude flows seamlessly
Please keep loving me endlessly…!
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Finally…!
To those places and people, she finally turned her back
Her mind strong, yet heart full of emotions,
With her memories packed she finally left
With a conviction that she never knew she had!
She finally ceased to think about that and them
Had mulled too long over unimportant things
Now was the time to live the decision
She knew she was right, didn’t bother those who condemned!
As if in a trance, yet so sure
Watching her own life as a reel
So strong, and so very brave
She knew her decision was true and pure!
It took her long, every drop of courage
She knew she might be judged
And questioned and suggested
Yet she did what was needed to undo the damage!
She left where she didn’t belong
No malice, just good wishes in return
Finally, she wanted to be on her own
Finally free, to sing her own song…
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Love YOU Baba…! ❤️
In moments bright or the darkest nights
In turbulent storms or the calmest sights
When my boat is rocking in crazy seas
When fearful thoughts make my heart go weak
In times of joy or those tearful nights
In the loudest applause or the loneliest sighs
When no one around seems to care a bit
When my stressed mind makes me go in a fitIf I just only look at YOU
I feel love, as pure as dewYOU bring me peace
YOU bring me hope
YOU make me smile
YOU make me copeYOU are my anchor
YOU are my mentor
YOU are my SUN
YOU are my everyone!Love YOU Baba! ❤️
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Trapped…!
It’s such a day today when my mind’s on various things
It doesn’t seem to find it’s rest
Different thoughts come rushing by
My patience they seem to test!
I find it hard not to yell
To tell them to leave me alone
They continue to plague my mind
Their burden on my face gets shown!
My mind keeps repeating words
Both, happy and sad memories
It seems like a roller coaster
My emotions playing a game with me!
Visions of those by gone days
Project in front of me
I question my innocent heart
When will you of them be free?
Why me! Why do I think of things?
I want to let go all of them and be free
But my mind seems to think otherwise
And doesn’t let me be!
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It’s not easy…!
It is not easy, it is not at all pain free,
To be empathetic, to feel so deeply!
It is not easy, to give and not get,
To be the one always, to forgive and forget!
It is not easy, to deal with those who are sly,
To be the only one who ever does try!
It is not easy to continue spreading smiles,
To be calm and patient, while they just spread lies!
It is not easy to not expect in return,
To be all calm when they miss their turn!
It is not easy to deal with those who’re cunning,
To be silent, while getting hurt at every turning!
It is not easy to not get trapped,
To stay positive when all hope is scrapped!
It is not easy to not feel hopeless,
To continue treading, this path of less!
Truly brave are those who don’t change with it,
They continue being true and hold onto their grit!
It’s not easy…!
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Fantasy world…!
In my fantasy world
No one troubles the other
There is love all around
No one causes a bother!
In my fantasy world
I am surrounded with peace
No fun at someone’s cost
There’s no mock or tease!
In my fantasy world
What you see, you get
There’s no hypocrisy
No lies, no fret!
In my fantasy world
Friends do not cause a worry
They reciprocate honesty
Truth is not given up in a hurry!
In my fantasy world
Smiles and bliss rule
Each helps joyfully
None considers the other a fool!
In my fantasy world
There is no arrogance or pomp
Words are chosen carefully
Of hurtful thoughts there’s no swamp!
In my fantasy world
You can reach out transparently
With no fear of ridicule
You’re met most lovingly!
In my fantasy world
Only positivity grows
No hatred, no animosity
Love rules, negativity gets disposed…!
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You didn’t…!
You said, and I listened
I said, but you didn’t
You asked, and I responded
I asked, but you didn’t
You expressed, and I empathised
I expressed, but you didn’t
You narrated, and I paid heed to
I narrated, but you didn’t
You needed, and I helped
I needed, but you didn’t
You cried, and I hugged you
I cried, but you didn’t
You called, and I responded
I called, but you didn’t
You felt lonely, and I rushed
I felt lonely, but you didn’t
You were never there for me
Your “didn’t” became more evident to see
One way won’t work anymore for me
I wish you well, may you meet many more as thee! 😉
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The Nomad…!
Have you ever looked at a nomad?
He is neither here nor there.
To others he is man of many lands,
To himself, he is of nowhere!
He belongs to which place,
When he just roams around.
He picks himself up,
And easily leaves grounds.
Does he ever feel sad?
Does he experience grief?
When it is time to bid adieu,
To where he has breathed?
New lands, new people,
Does he ever feel scared?
Does he ever miss?
The ones with whom he has shared!
Have you ever looked at a nomad?
Did you see the tears in his eyes?
Yes, you saw his courage,
But did you see the pain in his smile?
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“We do“…!
Who will understand
Probably no one
Why I feel so lonely
After I have your vision…
Who will be able to replicate
The warmth I feel
There is no duplicate
The love there is ideal…
Who will bring that joy
The smile you bring is unparallel
The end to my gloom
Only in your visions dwell…
Who will ever know “us”
There’ll never be a chance
For when we say “we do”
It only just feels, in a trance…!
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Grief…!
The gush of grief came upon me
Before I knew it had me engulfed
Trapped in my misery so terribly
I was left so scared as a result!
My own sighs seemed surprising
I didn’t know I could reach this spot
The tears flowing incessantly
Had me thinking how I reached this rot!
Breathing was hard between my sobs
My heart felt crushed with pain
Every gasp seemed a plea for life
But nonetheless – it was in vain!
No way looked worthy
No one seemed to care
No helping hand, held out
The world kept moving
All around me
No one seemed to bother
That I was left out!
The gloom hit hard
Nothing seemed good
Even my shadow seemed to have left my side
The dream that someone will care to stop
Seemed so silly and hurt me deep inside!
The grief surrounded me from all directions
There seemed no possible escape
The burden of my thoughts was so much
Taking even a step had me precipitate!
The high tides overpowered me
I tried, but then gave up
This grief will have me down
Till I muster the strength to swim back up!
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Runner up…!
After all the efforts and all the sweat
Post all the hard work that you were sincerely at
After attempting to achieve with all your might
Post dreaming about the end and getting the prize
Often living the winning moment in your dreams as well
Holding the trophy gloriously as if under a spell
Going over it in your mind to what you’ll say
How much will you smile, how fast will be your gait
After all the restlessness and all the shivers
Post all the sleepless nights and the anxious quivers
You attempt your best shot and give it all you have
Your last shout of effort, and it’s all over in a flash
You wait anxiously to see if you’ve won
You wait to hear the words “You’ve done it! You’re the one!”
But what you get is “good but not enough”
You’re not the winner, only the runner up!
There – but not nearly
The gap – costs you dearly
Missed it – but how!
Tell me – what now!
You might do it all over again
Though it sounds so unsteady
After all the efforts went in vain
What’s the guarantee!
The words ring and linger on
The moment which you dreamt of is now gone
Good – but not enough
Not a winner – only a runner up!
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Our love…!
Our love is pure and very true
You love only me & I love only you
Our love is the greatest and very rare
Each word shows joy, each action depicts care
Our love is a gem & totally real
Being together with you seems surreal
Our love is emotion & no pretence
Nothing to achieve, just feelings intense
Our love is exemplary, for everyone to see
As we contently sit, facing the sea
Our love is power & total strength
In good or bad, makes us cross all length
Our love is bliss & needs no proof
In our every move as together we groove
Our love is divine & very soulful
Holding your hand, I get tearful
Our love is a delight, a treat to relish
After a long separation, it is ours to cherish
Our love is a gift & a special reward
No more sorrow when we could afford
Our love is pure & very true
You love only me & I love only you…!
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Betrayal…!
Betrayal is hard
It comes from those close
Tears and pain
Is what always follows…
Betrayal brings sorrow
It leaves one in utter grief
No clue of why it was so
One is left in disbelief…
Betrayal brings sheer surprise
One is left totally shaken
What went wrong and where
With such thoughts one gets overtaken…
Betrayal brings depression
Everything looks black
Who can one trust then?
One’s own when in it lacked…
Betrayal sadly also brings self-doubt
One starts questioning self
Those self-committing feelings
Get very tough to be shelved…
Betrayal brings change too
One decides not to be fooled again
The once forgiving heart
Closes doors on everyone then…
Why does betrayal exist
Why can’t people stay true
What do they gain from backstabbing,
Don’t they fear they can receive it too!!!
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In love with “love”
Be in love with “love”
It’s a feeling so sweet
When you feel loved
Every moment is a treat!
Be in love with “love”
The world seems a paradise
With care and passion
When your days get comprised!
Be in love with “love”
The sweet nothings too
Become so meaningful
And erase all blues!
Be in love with “love”
Together with someone
Dream the would be(s)
For life’s future turns!
Be in love with “love”
And live the joys it brings
For however long it lasts
A merry melody you sing!
Be in love with “love”
It may not last for ever
But its lingering fragrance
In your heart will cease never!
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Only Love…!
This is life, it will be sudden, it will be harsh
In exchange for your goodness, you might be served trash!
This is life, it will hurt, it will give blows
In return for your helpfulness, you might get only foes!
This is life, it will shock, it will rip your plans
For all your kind behaviour, you might get only scams!
This is life, it will hit, it will rock your boat
Work as you much, it won’t let you stay afloat!
It will continue to test, without allowing any respite
One blow after the other, will make you question your might!
But, no one, and absolutely nothing can beat you,
Till, you continue to care and just stay true,
Forget what makes you weak & tap on your faith,
Do what you feel is right, spread only love, and never hate!
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Every now and then…!
Every now and then
My heart calls out to you
In my dreams you visit
They seem so very true!
Every now and then
You come and knock my thoughts
Without any warnings
In a different world I’m drawn!
Every now and then
Your name I say aloud
Without any reason
A warmth I feel around!
Every now and then
A smile which comes to me
If I decipher it
It spirals back to thee!
Every now and then
When I crave for more of you
I must tell my ignorant heart
To wait, for a lifetime or few!
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Why don’t you…!
Why don’t you leave
Why do you visit
When nothing it is that you want from me!
Why don’t you go
Why do you come
When nowhere together we have to reach!
Why don’t you cease
Why do you talk
When nothing there is that you have to share!
Why don’t you turn
Why do you look
When no meaning there is to your glance or stare!
Why don’t you exit
Why do you linger
When together we are not meant to stay
Why don’t you finish – this once and for all
When nothing neither, to the other, has to say…!
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