Author: Sonal

Do you believe in angels? Oh, I very much do

Have felt their warm presence and motherly care too!

God can’t be everywhere, so HE created angels for me and you

To help us, spread love and to support us in what we do!

 

Few angels in my life, have been there always for me

They’ve guided me always, to the best that it could be!

Had it not been for them, don’t know what would’ve I done

Just perceiving hardship, I think I would’ve run!

But due to their help & guidance in my life

I faced hardship & every possible strife,

Many challenging situations were made easy

They were always there, and never too busy!

I feel grateful to HIM for sending them my way

Even in thick clouds, they brought a bright ray

I love my angels and always want them in my vicinity

They are special signs of HIM, & symbols of HIS divinity!

What is life, is it only this despair

Woof… went all my dreams flying in the air

Not that I had dreams also too big

Just someone who loves with whom life could’ve been a merry zig

This heartache and these constant tears

This agony and heart full of fears

Weren’t part of the vision about my future

There was love, peace and lot of laughter

I know sorrow comes when joy one has to reach

There is darkness before light fills the corner each

There are heartbreaks when love round the corner waits

And failures are there before we meet our fate

But waiting and waiting and waiting endlessly

And crying and crying, eyes shed tears ceaselessly

Heart breaks and the soul feels lonely

Where to go, what to do, I look around hopelessly

All doors closed, only turning around is possible

Making a u turn and returning seems viable

To the very state which caused all that’s said above

Are you laughing now – the Almighty there above?

Not saying You are wrong, I surely must be deserving

Of this pain and agony, that’s why I must be suffering

Will this how I’ll live forever… is what gives a shiver

Will each day of life be such… till with last breath my lips quiver?

To die before dying is what has happened to me

Now it is just living for name though nothing is remaining to be

Where are all those hopes, where is that smile?

Where is the happiness, my desire to strive?

Where is that twinkle in my eye,

Which when conveyed, made me feel shy!

Where is my zest for life, the love that I had in abundance?

Can I get all these back at this very instance?

What is the purpose of my life, why have You sent me here?

Can You kindly towards that path my life steer?

Tired of seeing insults and enough of failures now

Being looked down upon, and giving everything with a bow

I am looking upon You to guide me the right way

Can You please have mercy and show me the day?

This darkness is empowering and will engulf me all

Oh please hold my hand and save me this final fall

Make me strong or hold me tight

Let me go… or else fill me with Your light

Change my heart and mind, give my soul its purpose

Or teach me the ways to deal with life’s circus!

To live is getting tougher

The road is getting even rougher

I can’t do it without You, so do remember this,

Please come my way without any further tiff!

I miss you all through the day, I think of you even at night

I keep thinking what could’ve been, how you could’ve been in sight

How you could’ve been along, and how different things could’ve been

Had you ever expressed, those hidden feelings for me!

I sometimes even think, wish I had spoken myself

Coz heartbreak frightened you so much, that expression, you shelved

It perplexes me so much, that how your fear caused a block

Even when you saw, the one you loved, was in shock

To see how you behaved

And showed that you didn’t care

It hurt me so much I tell you,

That I couldn’t myself dare –

To tell you, that if you say, I won’t be able to refuse

For my dear the love you felt for me, I also felt for you!

 

 

Life is crazy, you’ve gone too far

My efforts are failing, in catching at par

What fears me, is that I am giving up

In even efforts, to keep my spirits up

No one knows, where this is going to take us

Can only pray to HIM, to always bless us

Till then let’s catch hold of each other

‘Coz this my dear, is really rough weather!

Neither are you mine nor ever will be

Still heart calls out for you and eyes want to see

Your face, and I just want to hear once again

Your soothing voice my dear without any strain!

I miss our endless conversations from morning till night

Our sharing with each other all talks however slight

Our saying everything though words we use didn’t

Our waiting for each other to understand the hints!

Feeling proximity, from a distance quite a lot

Feeling one with you, though close you were not

Waiting for your messages with childlike impatience

Smiling all along while reading them with just no pretence!

Dreams were seen though hardly ever shared

Longings were there to meet and express

Those around, also knew what we had in mind

But it was unspoken between us, something left to find.

Your letters and mails and messages were craved

Your words still, are deep in heart saved

Words that we used for each other while we spoke

Are all still held dearly, however hearts broke

When before we could meet we were made to part ways

The story which hardly began now shattered lay

There are words unsaid and questions unanswered

Wish we can meet someday and confirm what we read.

Why didn’t you speak aloud, why didn’t you hold my hand?  

Why didn’t you hold me tight when I dared to tread a new land?

Why did you let me go so easily and without any fight?

How could you accept the fact that I won’t be in sight?

I know there weren’t any promises and I’m not holding you wrong

We never told each other that our melody was a love song

But we both know that it was much more than we shared

Like none will ever, about me you cared.

What pains me is why now we can’t be in touch?

Why even our sacred friendship is looked upon with distrust?

Don’t you ever miss me, or again just choose to hide?

Heart pains, when I think of the rough tide

Which took me away from you and you did nothing to stop me

Oh why you didn’t show courage and tried to make me see

True feelings which you had or the future which could be

I miss you so much and – my Friend – you will fondly always be!