What is life, is it only this despair
Woof… went all my dreams flying in the air
Not that I had dreams also too big
Just someone who loves with whom life could’ve been a merry zig
This heartache and these constant tears
This agony and heart full of fears
Weren’t part of the vision about my future
There was love, peace and lot of laughter
I know sorrow comes when joy one has to reach
There is darkness before light fills the corner each
There are heartbreaks when love round the corner waits
And failures are there before we meet our fate
But waiting and waiting and waiting endlessly
And crying and crying, eyes shed tears ceaselessly
Heart breaks and the soul feels lonely
Where to go, what to do, I look around hopelessly
All doors closed, only turning around is possible
Making a u turn and returning seems viable
To the very state which caused all that’s said above
Are you laughing now – the Almighty there above?
Not saying You are wrong, I surely must be deserving
Of this pain and agony, that’s why I must be suffering
Will this how I’ll live forever… is what gives a shiver
Will each day of life be such… till with last breath my lips quiver?
To die before dying is what has happened to me
Now it is just living for name though nothing is remaining to be
Where are all those hopes, where is that smile?
Where is the happiness, my desire to strive?
Where is that twinkle in my eye,
Which when conveyed, made me feel shy!
Where is my zest for life, the love that I had in abundance?
Can I get all these back at this very instance?
What is the purpose of my life, why have You sent me here?
Can You kindly towards that path my life steer?
Tired of seeing insults and enough of failures now
Being looked down upon, and giving everything with a bow
I am looking upon You to guide me the right way
Can You please have mercy and show me the day?
This darkness is empowering and will engulf me all
Oh please hold my hand and save me this final fall
Make me strong or hold me tight
Let me go… or else fill me with Your light
Change my heart and mind, give my soul its purpose
Or teach me the ways to deal with life’s circus!
To live is getting tougher
The road is getting even rougher
I can’t do it without You, so do remember this,
Please come my way without any further tiff!