In this space, I write not to explain life, but to explore it. Pause with me, linger between the lines, and perhaps you’ll discover a piece of your own story here too. 🙂
Why don’t you leave
Why do you visit
When nothing it is that you want from me!
Why don’t you go
Why do you come
When nowhere together we have to reach!
Why don’t you cease
Why do you talk
When nothing there is that you have to share!
Why don’t you turn
Why do you look
When no meaning there is to your glance or stare!
Why don’t you exit
Why do you linger
When together we are not meant to stay
Why don’t you finish – this once and for all
When nothing neither, to the other, has to say…!
I wonder why the world is so
The good, the bad are treated alike
The givers get the overload
To give, and still bear the dislike!
Expectations soar only from those who care
The ones that don’t are easily written off
What little they do gets appreciated
The mount of good just gets easily scoffed!
It pains me to see this injustice
I wonder why the world is so
But such are things what I can do
Is treat “the good” with showers of glow!
Show them they’re loved, and what they do
Makes a difference and helps others grow!
The gestures big or small don’t matter
What matters most is “that care” they show!
If you too have someone around Who generously helps, then tell them today
How valued they are, how much they’re wanted
Lift their spirits by your loving display!
Just You & me Baba
What more do I need
Talking to You and learning truths
With You my joy is guaranteed!
Just You & me Baba
What more do I crave
Mesmerised by Your soothing voice
Can I ever say thanks for all that You gave?
Just You & me Baba
What more do I want
Gazing into Your loving eyes
I forget all my fears, nothing haunts!
Just You & me Baba
Where else can I sleep
On your lap when I place my head
The peace is felt right deep!
Just You & me Baba
No other is there to care
I’ve been pained by all
The love You give is rare!
Together with You Baba
Close to You I wish I stay
Into You I want to merge
Your word I want to obey!
Forever with You Baba
Like Your Sunshine ray
Holding Your hand I want to walk
Miles and miles away…!
I see this creeper inching towards You everyday
I wonder what it is wanting to say
Gradually, it grows in length
Enhancing itself and gaining strength
Curiously, I wait to see
When will it finally touch Your feet
It is headed for the most pious joy
Its victory, I will heartily enjoy!
Who is the one who’ll give you a hug
Who’ll hold your hand when the going is rough
Who is the one who’ll wipe your tears
Who’ll stand by you when you can no longer bear
Who is the one who brings you peace
In the jigsaw of your life, who is that missing piece
Who is the one who never forsakes
May be away, but always keeps the love awake
Who is the one who makes you smile
Who never lets you feel lonely on miles
Who is the one you always reach out to
When you need an ear or just a shoulder to cry to…
This someone may come in any form
A friend, family, lover or guide
Keep them near and cherish them
For you’re lucky to have someone so in your life!
I just want to be hidden
I don’t want to appear
I don’t want the spotlight
In the crowds I want to disappear
I don’t want to be known
I just want to retreat
I don’t want the centre stage
Behind them I’ll be, totally discreet
I don’t want to be “the one”
I wish to lie low
I don’t want to be applauded
Or ridiculed for going slow
Enough of their scrutiny
Enough of their judgements
Enough of their advice
For I know their real intent
I don’t want to be in reach
I don’t want to be on display
I just want to be a nobody
From their eye I’ll be faraway…!
You’re the only light in my life
All else is bleak
You’re the only peace in me
Nothing else I seek
You’re my heart’s calling
All else is noise
You’re the one I want to be with
Who else stands a choice
You’re the one I want with me
No one else is true
You’re my only friend Baba
None as You, old or new
You’re the only rainbow I see
All else is sheer gloom
Your smile lifts my spirits
Everything else is doomed
How do I tell thee Baba
What all You mean to me
Without You I am meaningless
No point being, if YOU I don’t see…!
I just want to be hidden
I don’t want to appear
I don’t want the spotlight
In the crowds I want to disappear
I don’t want to be known
I just want to retreat
I don’t want the centre stage
Behind them I’ll be, totally discreet
I don’t want to be “the one”
I wish to lie low
I don’t want to be applauded
Or ridiculed for going slow
Enough of their scrutiny
Enough of their judgements
Enough of their advice
For I know their real intent
I don’t want to be in reach
I don’t want to be on display
I just want to be a nobody
From their eye to be faraway…!
I had a special dream
Which gave me a big smile
Your loving gaze charmed me
As holding hands, we walked the mile
I had a special dream
Endless, engaging chit chat
Beautiful places where we met
Talking about our this and that
I had a special dream
The joy which I felt around me
Together perfectly we belonged
Said one and all who could see
I had a special dream
Free from tears, sobs or pain
Nothing in it which I wouldn’t want
Such pleasure from it I gained
The love, the care, the warmth
The comfort and the contentment
The sheer sense of belonging
Waves of bliss to me which it sent…
YOU are the SUN and I, Your sunshine
Like a vine, to YOU I entwine
Without YOU there can never be a me
Without YOU, I have no identity
YOU are my boulder, to YOU I owe my strength
YOU are my saviour; I know for me YOU’ll go any length
YOU are my guide, YOUR teachings I try to imbibe
YOU are my God, YOUR feet are my shrine
YOU always love, YOUR caress is not seen but felt
YOUR love is the purest, YOU make the toughest heart melt
YOU are MY SAI, YOUR name I chant day and night
YOU are MY BABA, I live by YOUR face, YOUR name and YOUR light…!
In my world all is good
I live on my terms,
happy as I could…
In my world there is peace
Within and externally
On a steep increase…
In my world relations aren’t fake
Care and caress in ample
Quick forgiveness for mistakes…
In my world there are smiles
Genuine joy and glee
Tears are easily put aside…
In my world there is hope
Homesty is valued
Selfish desires not in scope…
In my world there is togetherness
Building each other
Not lonely hopelessness…
In my world there is truth
No back stabbing
Gentle words that soothe…
In my world there is compassion
Words are understood
Ruthlessness isn’t in fashion…
In my world there is sunshine
Caressing and nurturing
Love for all aligned…
In my world there is knowledge
Empowering one and all
To help all accomplish…
In my world there are prayers
Simple, honest thoughts
Each gets its fair share…
In my world there is love
Everlasting and honest
As pure as the divine above…
In my world there’s us
Living our soulful life
Together, without any fuss…
In my world there’s YOU
My guide, my anchor always
Leading my path all through…
I leave them behind
I try to create a new world
But the old thoughts
Again, have me encircled
I try to speed up and run away
But I get chased and find them in my way
Is there no way to not have them?
The useless thoughts – why do they stem!
I reason out, command to be left alone
But they repeatedly creep into my zone
I want to break free, for no purpose I find
Why these thoughts should be in my mind
I reprimand them and banish them to go
Yet, I get chased, like a creeper they grow
I sit with them, listen to them again
Realise that there’s no point to remain chained
I implore them to let me win
They ask me to turn within
Their roots I find deep in my heart
Till the roots are there, how will they depart!
This time around I question myself you see
Do I agree that I really want to get free?
Do they chase me or I keep them close?
Why do I ask for their repeated dose!
They remind me of those who I hold dear
Of happy times when they were near
So, yes, probably I hold onto them
As they let me escape to a magical realm
Where all is happy and they’re close
Love and smiles are in overdose
The pain of reality hits me again
They’re not near, so these thoughts are in vain
I gather myself and start to run away
Being chased by those thoughts that don’t obey!
Heart knows that the distance has increased
Heart knows that you’re away physically
Heart knows that you can’t listen to my words
Heart knows that things have changed drastically
Feelings know that they must change too
Feelings know that everything isn’t the same
Feelings know that you aren’t close to care
Feelings know that I can no longer say your name
Wishes, however stay, they care the least
Wishes, however flow, totally carefree
Wishes, however wish, the very best for you
Wishes, however say – may you always be with glee!
The things I see, they baffle me,
They pierce my heart like a dagger
They hit me with a ferocious speed
I can’t stand strong, I stagger!
They make me feel so lonely
Amidst all that’s tangible around
I squirm and pull myself in
Encircled by thoughts newfound!
Trying to find a stable ground
Beneath my shaking feet
I tell my very hurting heart
“Give it time again, you’ll heal”!
With no one who’ll comprehend
I curl within to hug my soul
Whatever it is that comes as scenes
Don’t fight it, just behold!
So, I allow myself to feel this pain
It has come for a reason I am sure
It has chosen me for good or bad
And I’ll let it stay till it cures!
True love is tranquil
It doesn’t make much noise
True love is peaceful
It doesn’t need a strong voice
True love doesn’t give shivers
It gives eternal peace
True love is like a puzzle
In which in place is every piece
True love isn’t demanding
It accepts and forgoes
True love isn’t revengeful
It rejoices and helps to grow
True love doesn’t forget
Whether it’s near or far
True love always stays
Forever fresh in heart
True love is to be cherished
Like the most precious gem
True love should be valued
Above this, that or them
True love brings victory
Even if after a long fight
True love – if it’s around you
Don’t let go – hold onto it tight!
Once again, the same old pain
I really can’t bear it anymore
It makes me wince terribly
How much more is in store!
Each time it hits even harder
I feel everything is useless
Every time I think I am over it
Yet it comes back to oppress!
I remember when it first hit me
I thought I wouldn’t survive
But I was stronger than I knew
It taught me lessons, I’m alive!
Every pain is a lesson
But it takes so much strength to pass
Trying to stay afloat midst a storm
It takes all your might to surpass!
It will take time to fight it again
It will keep me down for a bit
But I will emerge stronger again
I will combat it with my grit!
Is it important to know
The answers to it all?
Is it important to be sure
To prepare of what might befall?
Is it not ok to not know?
Tread, not knowing the whereabout
Is it not ok to not see it all?
Just flow, without keeping doubts
Is it not ok to say “I don’t know”
Why should I be expected to know it all?
Is it not ok to say “I’m not sure”?
Without the fear of being judged as small
It should be ok to have incompetencies
To not be a winner always
It should be ok to be a mediocre
Why this race to be first no matter what way!
It should be ok to even fail
If you learn what it has to teach
It should be ok to give it up
If some alternative is within your reach
Less pressure, balanced expectations
A chance to thrive at what we can
No pressure to match upto someone
How amazing will be that life span!!
I tried not to hear
But the voice was loud
I tried to shut it out
But could still hear what it was all about
It was all about me –
Why I don’t have what I want
Why I don’t deserve
Why pains are there to haunt
It laughed at me and made me cry
Didn’t bother to stop, even when it saw me sigh
It was cruel and sharp like a knife
It gave me wounds that’ll last a life
I couldn’t handle but it carried on
I wanted to run but as if frozen –
My feet stayed glued at the spot
As if the ridicule I had chosen!
With no one around me I had to accept
The voice was no one else but my own thoughts
All the torment of previous years
Found words blaming me for my rot
Wish I been more considerate of my heart
And would’ve thought of protecting myself
Had I not given in to their cunning art
And not ran the race to prove myself
Yes, it was correct, and I was wrong
What did I achieve by this demeanour!
The lost years, the wasted joys
Mind full of all possible fears
I pleaded and begged my heart
Be kind to me as it has been to thee
It pleaded me in return
“Break the confining norms
Try to listen to me and to be free”!
Never say never
For it is not an end till you believe
There might always be another chance
For you to achieve
Never say never
As there is light at the end of that bend
There is always a silver lining
A hope, a helping hand
Never say never
For you never know what you’ll miss
If you give up too soon
Your dreams will be at a risk
Never say never
For your potential, even you don’t comprehend
Why settle for less
When greater heights you can ascend
So, never say never
Just give it another try
A harder push, an extended leap
Who then can stop you from reaching that summit up high!
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