Sonal's Poems

In this space, I write not to explain life, but to explore it. Pause with me, linger between the lines, and perhaps you’ll discover a piece of your own story here too. 🙂

Author: Sonal

  • Hope – a tiny whisper..!

    Today, when I felt hopeless, tired and all low

    Battered by life’s challenges, tests and tiring blows

    Wanted to give up, just accept my defeat

    Wanted to lie low, stop and silently retreat

    As I thought to do that, a tiny whisper I heard

    Wait, there’s HOPE, why not try, why give up! 

    Each step that you take, I’ll walk with you along

    I know you feel terrified, but I’m there, holding you strong

    You may feel you’re all alone, but I’m there holding your hand

    You may feel weak, but I’m giving you strength to stand

    I know you feel no one listens, you feel abondoned and bereft

    But you must believe that by me, you’ll never be left 

    Don’t fear the challenges, for they bring lessons great

    Don’t fear the darkness, for light it surely generates

    Keep going, don’t stop, move ahead – a step at a time

    Eventually my dear, you’ll be at the summit of the climb!

  • These walls…!

    These walls that I’ve built, aren’t what I wished for

    Within which I am hiding, with my wounds sore 

    Will these walls protect me from any further hurt?

    I hope the next pain comes only after an alert!

    Thought you were someone with whom I’ll share

    Thought you were someone who truly cares

    But you actually forced me into building these tough walls

    The pain which you gave, was actually – the biggest of all

    These walls are comforting in a peculiar way

    Atleast they don’t change colours every single day

    Brick by brick for my sanity

    Will this wall help me get some clarity?!

  • Road alone…!

    We are all lonely on this road – all alone

    Just walking the path that gets shown

    Treading carefully taking a step by step

    Nothing helps, how much ever one preps

    So just keep walking, but remember to pause

    When the going gets tough and you want to withdraw

    Take a moment to sit and relax

    Let the light creep in from those little cracks…

  • The same hurt…!

    I don’t know how I forget

    How always you behaved so curt

    Why on earth do I let myself

    Go back to the same hurt!

    I wonder what made me forget

    Those things that I’d heard

    Then how on earth do I let myself

    Go back to the same hurt!

    I must be crazy to forget

    Your selfish deeds and words

    Really silly of me I know

    To go back to the same hurt!

    Why did I think you’ve changed

    Why did I expect a U-turn 

    Must be truly crazy of me

    To get back to the same hurt!

    How long till I learn my lesson

    How long till I give up

    Why don’t I learn to discount you

    And stop going back to the same hurt!

    Gradually you’re also improving

    As each time you outdo your worse

    Still, like a mad person that I am

    I land myself in the same hurt! 

    High time I give up on you

    High time I understand my worth

    High time I do whatever is needed

    And stop going back to the same hurt! 

    Sometimes out of courtesy

    Other times due to my soft heart

    Even, because I don’t know

    This horrible, hurtful art

    I’ve given enough second chances

    Enough excuses to your erratic self

    No more, I’ll keep reminding myself

    Just STOP – going back to the same hurt!

  • Disloyal Friendship…!

    I am always happy for you, then how come you’re not for me?
    I am always genuine with you, then how come you’re so fake to see?
    I always offer you full support, but where are you in my need?
    I give you my loyalty, then why do you not give it back to me?

    I’ve always been a true friend, your lies but have cheated me!
    I’ve always had your back, your actions but have blemished me!
    I’ve wished you well from the heart, but you’re caught demeaning me!
    I’ve been your true friend, your friendship but has hypocrisy!

    I get hurt and feel so sad
    Yet nothing which I can do frankly
    Can wish that you never receive
    Friendship filled with disloyalty!

  • Reverence…!

    Picture Credit – https://instagram.com/saibaba_doodles?igshid=YzAyZWRlMzg=

    You always know when to step in
    When to push me ahead or pull me back
    You always know how to help me
    To keep or steer me on the correct track
    You never show that it’s Your work
    But the love in it spills the beans
    Who else, but You, my loving Sai
    Is behind these magically caring schemes!

    Just like that You come to help
    Just like that You bring back my smile
    Just like that You change the scene
    In Your super loving and mysterious style
    My guiding star, my lighthouse You are
    Baba You have not a part, but my heart in whole
    Never forsake me or leave my hand
    Just fill me with You – body, mind and soul!

  • No matter how far…!

    No matter how it seems with dark clouds above
    Through the dull skies you’ll see a ray of love
    Wherever you may be no matter how distant
    My love will reach to you like a rainbow vibrant

    Through the dark clouds, the silver lining that you see
    Through the frosty mornings, the little sun that you see
    Through the night sky, the bright star that guides you
    Through the pitch dark, the tiny light that guides you
    Through the scorching heat, the shady tree that you find
    Through the dry lands, the fresh stream that you find
    Through the tired tears, the tiny strength that you feel
    Through the ifs and buts, a giant leap of faith that you feel

    Is all my love for you whether me – you see or not see?
    Are all my smiles being sent, to wish you good health and glee
    No matter how far, no matter how away
    My love and wishes always, always will find your way…

  • Fight the pain…!

    Your pain can make you tough or it can make you tremble

    Your tears can get you going or hold you in deep shambles

    Your agony can fire you or make you weep like a baby

    Your past can keep you chained with in your thought a “maybe”

    Don’t let your fears rule you

    Find a way to fight those blues

    Nowhere but forward, you tread

    Don’t give up, be a fighter instead!

  • Who is there…!

    Who is there to stay?

    To stand by you in fray

    To not leave your side

    Even if your word doesn’t sound right

    To fight or argue how much ever

    But in your absence will defame you never

    To be there when you wanna talk

    Beside you, when you wanna walk

    Who is there to spread some cheer?

    When your days look sad and weird

    To meet you and wipe your tear

    Hold your hand till the clouds get cleared

    Such angels around you if there are

    Consider them blessings for they’re the guiding stars

    Also strive to be one yourself too

    For those who need such angels aren’t few…

  • You & me…!

    Don’t go so far, I need you near
    To lose you, is my biggest fear
    Hold me close let me hear your beat
    In my heart you hold the highest seat 
    Keep me steady, you’re my rock 
    Guide me far from all roads block
    Let me rest in your loving shade
    Only for you has my heart been made 
    Give me the warmth of your safe embrace
    Don’t want to lose sight of your loving face 
    Stay with me till the end, and forever 
    Nothing happy for me if we are not together!
     
  • SAI & I…!

    One look at YOU and my heart finds it’s peace
    One glance from YOU and my heart finds it’s bliss
    There is magic in YOUR look my Sai
    No one loves me like YOU do
    In YOUR embrace my Sai
    I found the joy which I never knew
    YOU make me feel confident Sai
    With YOU I believe that I can
    YOU make me smile my Sai
    I feel proud to be of YOUR clan
    YOU make me feel truly loved
    I feel blessed to be a part of YOUR plan
    YOU teach me patience and grow my faith
    YOU teach me how to endure even in pain
    YOU never fail to help, support and relieve
    YOU show YOUR magic and always make me believe
    I want YOUR signs and messages always
    I want to live my life following YOUR ways
    Just continue loving me and holding my hand
    YOUR word my Sai, is, and will always be my command!

  • I forgive…!

    I forgive the one who broke my trust
    Constantly told blatant lies
    Had no love but only lust –
    for money, power, and everything wrong

    I forgive the one who misled me
    With fake smiles and polished words
    Shaded the reality from me to see
    Hid the truth and his self uncouth

    I forgive the one whom I called a friend
    But behind my back who badmouthed
    What good it did – I do not know
    It broke my heart when I got to know it though

    I forgive the one who never wished me well
    Even when I prayed for them
    All those who never were loyal to me
    Even when I always stood by them

    I forgive the one who plotted and planned
    Tried all ways to twist my arm
    Did all in their power to send my way
    Physical, mental and emotional harm

    I also, forgive myself truly
    To let such people come to me
    To not end – when I finally
    Got to see their reality

    Yes, I was naive, didn’t know how to
    Safeguard myself and not punish me
    The gallons cried over such moments
    Could’ve been true times of glee

    However now I understand
    So, I forgive them from my heart
    They did what they knew or learnt
    Someday they will also face the brunt

    No revenge, not even bad feelings
    Just want my peace and nothing else
    So I forgive and leave it to God
    I know that someday time will tell…!

  • Reminiscing…!

    The place is the same,

    Yet years are different

    Characters are same,

    Yet roles are different

    Lessons are same,

    Yet timing is different

    The theme is the same,

    Yet story is different

    Emotions are the same

    Yet love is different

    Starting was the same 

    But I hope – the ending is different…!

  • You keep coming back to me…!

    No matter how many years have passed

    Or how many more will come

    Silently without any reason to be

    Your thought comes back to me…

    No matter how many faces since

    Or how many more I’ll see

    Thoughtlessly without any plea

    Your face comes back to me…

    No matter how many conversations since

    Wonder how many more I’ll hear

    Creepily in my nothingness

    Your words come back to me…

    No matter how many more songs

    Don’t know how many more melodies

    Catching me of guard sometimes

    Your voice comes back to me…

    No matter how many approvals I’ve seen

    Maybe there’ll be more applause 

    But in all those moments of glee

    Your smile comes back to me… 

    No matter how many tears I’ve shed

    Many more heartbreaks I might see

    In each of those sighs and cries

    Your love comes back to me… 

    No matter how many lines I’ve said

    Many more might flow as sea

    Rhythmically, magically

    Your rhyme I’ll sing till eternity…

  • No answer to my whys…!

    I saw you there – when you were rushing by

    You looked at me and let out a sigh

    At first you tried to walk away

    But then you turned and came my way

    You looked hurt and I know I did wrong

    You were angry that I wasn’t strong

    Still, you lovingly stroked my hair

    I nearly choked for that gasp of air

    Tears brimming my eyes I asked how you were

    No words, your finger on my cheek lingered

    Then you asked – “Wasn’t I your choice?”

    “Why weren’t you strong”, you asked in a muffled voice…

    My tears by now had smeared my face 

    I said I was sorry for my fearful ways 

    You shook your head in exasperation 

    While still holding my face in desperation 

    Suddenly then your poise you regained

    When you backed off, I almost exploded in pain

    “Please don’t go”, I cried out with scare

    Not in my senses, of my surroundings I wasn’t aware

    The disappointment in your eyes, the defeated look

    “You could’ve been mine”, were your words as a step away you took

    As if frozen, I saw your retreat

    I was to blame for this shattering defeat

    You tried to hide those tears of pain

    “Take care” you said in a very weak strain 

    I saw you leave, turning every now and then

    Don’t know how long, not sure till when

    I stood there with tears flowing by

    With no reason, no answer to my whys…

  • Your Love…!

    When you thought of me and it made you smile

    When you were so busy but still called for a while 

    When you stopped by to hand me a written note

    Sweet words for me that you lovingly wrote

    When you looked my way and couldn’t look away

    When you tried, but couldn’t say what you wanted to say

    When you waited long just to drop me home

    When you told me not to go alone 

    When you offered your hand to steady me 

    When you always tried to protect me 

    When you took me to my favourite spot

    Without any reason a card for me you got

    When you wore that shirt that I liked on youWhen you surprised me with my pic that you drew

    In all those little moments you spoke without words

    Though unsaid, but you showed your love… 

    I cherish each moment as a precious gem

    Each gesture which never disappeared from my realm…

  • Channeling YOUR love…!

    YOUR sunshine is ready to obey
    Clasping YOUR hand really tight
    Being careful not to go astray
    YOUR word is my guide on this climb…

    I fear getting hurt again
    But love is what YOU wanted me to spread
    Hence I am trying to face the odds again
    Chanting YOUR name as I tread…

    Keep me in YOUR tight embrace
    YOU know how I get scared
    When I fail to see YOUR loving face
    My anxieties get flared…

    Keeping my faith in YOU intact
    As I start to journey the perilous road
    Save me from the pain and tears
    As I try to channel the love which YOU’ve bestowed…

  • The Final Meeting…!

    That last time when we spoke at length – just me and you

    Throats were choked, eyes were wet, spoken words were few

    Hearts heavy with the tough call that we had decided to make

    Yes, we needed to part ways, for everyone’s sake

    Clasping hands as tight as we could for that one last time

    Tears flowing seamlessly, the whole thing seemed a crime

    None wanted to be the first to end the final meeting

    I am sure if there was a passerby, he could hear our hearts beating

    “How will I live my life now”, the question wanted to be out

    But for the sake of the other, we both decided not to shout
    No more real smiles, no more real joy

    Duties and responsibilities – what will be left to enjoy

    Don’t know how you fared, I became a no one truly

    Just waiting to be the same me, which only you knew really

  • HOPE

    Waiting for the sunrise

    For the light to shine bright

    Waiting for that dawn

    Which’ll be an end to this night

    Longing for a crack

    To let the brightness creep in

    Longing for that energy

    Which’ll help me win

    Dreaming of that peace

    That marvellous destination

    Dreaming of that freedom

    Which will lead to a transformation

    Praying for that blessing

    That wondrous moment of joy

    Praying for that euphoria

    Which’ll eventually let me enjoy

    Wishing for the strength – the power to believe

    That the journey, though turbulent – is not the end still

    Wishing to stay strong – to keep the smile intact

    As each step I take, on this climb uphill…!

  • Divine Message…!

    How do I talk to YOU my God? 

    Do I visit your famous shrine, or bring YOU flowers special

    Do I donate to YOUR shrine’s treasury, or earn some credentials

    Do I call a big crowd, and sing YOUR praises to them

    Do I travel to the places, which my religion says are YOUR realm

    Do I make a temple in YOUR name, and have YOU all glittered in gold

    Do I offer YOU jewels, and get YOU the most dazzling throne

    Do I have to sit alone – eyes closed is it my Lord?

    Do I follow the rituals as mentioned in our holy records

    Will YOU understand through these actions, that I really love YOU so much 

    Will ever someone else pray to YOU with love such!

     

    Just while I thought,  I had understood it all, 

    A roaring laughter I heard – it had me enthralled 

     

    No need for any paraphernalia, no gold or flowers I want

    No crowds or throne with jewels, all this is so wrong

    A heart full of love, eyes with tears of joy

    Hands folded? Oh it doesn’t matter, if sitting with me you enjoy

    Whether you come in the morning or later in the day

    Just make sure my child, you come with love, not fear!

    Whether for a quick hello, or for hours you sit with me

    Don’t come if someone makes you, just at your wish you be

    And do you know my child, what will have me more impressed?

    If you offer your helping hand to that someone in distress

    Bring a smile on someone’s face and then you’ll see my child

    How madly, deeply, crazily I’ll love you and make you mine”

    So go to the shrine if you want, do all that they say too

    But only if you want it, not ‘coz they say ‘I told you to’!

    I live in your heart, I also live in the other’s

    So if you want to please me, don’t be for anyone a bother

    Love and live my child, for love is the greatest of all

    Only those who cause a pain, have misery on them befall

     

    With tears flowing endlessly, I listen to every word

    “I will do as YOU say my Baba, what a beautiful message I’ve got

    Whenever I want to meet YOU, I will try to look within

    Your beautiful message my Baba, has left me with the biggest grin”!