Last night when I dreamt of you
As usual I wanted to tell you all
In my heightened exuberance
Of our silence I had no recall
It hit me like a wave –
Ceased me, & totally knocked me out
Was I never meaningful to you!
Slithering in came all the recurring doubts
How things changed, how we drifted
You said we were the best of pals
I thought it was my safe heaven
Then what happened has no rationale
My heart is shattered you know
Ego too stands in the way
Want to run back to what we had
But how to make my heart feel okay!
Wish it was easy to fight and ask
To say my words and hear you too
Even when we didn’t agree –
How could you distance me from you!
Questions will remain and I will retreat
For I don’t think I can make me say
It’s better to dwell and continue to pose
Than to exhibit me all sad and frail!