In this space, I write not to explain life, but to explore it. Pause with me, linger between the lines, and perhaps you’ll discover a piece of your own story here too. 🙂
I see this creeper inching towards You everyday
I wonder what it is wanting to say
Gradually, it grows in length
Enhancing itself and gaining strength
Curiously, I wait to see
When will it finally touch Your feet
It is headed for the most pious joy
Its victory, I will heartily enjoy!
Who is the one who’ll give you a hug
Who’ll hold your hand when the going is rough
Who is the one who’ll wipe your tears
Who’ll stand by you when you can no longer bear
Who is the one who brings you peace
In the jigsaw of your life, who is that missing piece
Who is the one who never forsakes
May be away, but always keeps the love awake
Who is the one who makes you smile
Who never lets you feel lonely on miles
Who is the one you always reach out to
When you need an ear or just a shoulder to cry to…
This someone may come in any form
A friend, family, lover or guide
Keep them near and cherish them
For you’re lucky to have someone so in your life!
I just want to be hidden
I don’t want to appear
I don’t want the spotlight
In the crowds I want to disappear
I don’t want to be known
I just want to retreat
I don’t want the centre stage
Behind them I’ll be, totally discreet
I don’t want to be “the one”
I wish to lie low
I don’t want to be applauded
Or ridiculed for going slow
Enough of their scrutiny
Enough of their judgements
Enough of their advice
For I know their real intent
I don’t want to be in reach
I don’t want to be on display
I just want to be a nobody
From their eye I’ll be faraway…!
I just want to be hidden
I don’t want to appear
I don’t want the spotlight
In the crowds I want to disappear
I don’t want to be known
I just want to retreat
I don’t want the centre stage
Behind them I’ll be, totally discreet
I don’t want to be “the one”
I wish to lie low
I don’t want to be applauded
Or ridiculed for going slow
Enough of their scrutiny
Enough of their judgements
Enough of their advice
For I know their real intent
I don’t want to be in reach
I don’t want to be on display
I just want to be a nobody
From their eye to be faraway…!
In my world all is good
I live on my terms,
happy as I could…
In my world there is peace
Within and externally
On a steep increase…
In my world relations aren’t fake
Care and caress in ample
Quick forgiveness for mistakes…
In my world there are smiles
Genuine joy and glee
Tears are easily put aside…
In my world there is hope
Homesty is valued
Selfish desires not in scope…
In my world there is togetherness
Building each other
Not lonely hopelessness…
In my world there is truth
No back stabbing
Gentle words that soothe…
In my world there is compassion
Words are understood
Ruthlessness isn’t in fashion…
In my world there is sunshine
Caressing and nurturing
Love for all aligned…
In my world there is knowledge
Empowering one and all
To help all accomplish…
In my world there are prayers
Simple, honest thoughts
Each gets its fair share…
In my world there is love
Everlasting and honest
As pure as the divine above…
In my world there’s us
Living our soulful life
Together, without any fuss…
In my world there’s YOU
My guide, my anchor always
Leading my path all through…
I leave them behind
I try to create a new world
But the old thoughts
Again, have me encircled
I try to speed up and run away
But I get chased and find them in my way
Is there no way to not have them?
The useless thoughts – why do they stem!
I reason out, command to be left alone
But they repeatedly creep into my zone
I want to break free, for no purpose I find
Why these thoughts should be in my mind
I reprimand them and banish them to go
Yet, I get chased, like a creeper they grow
I sit with them, listen to them again
Realise that there’s no point to remain chained
I implore them to let me win
They ask me to turn within
Their roots I find deep in my heart
Till the roots are there, how will they depart!
This time around I question myself you see
Do I agree that I really want to get free?
Do they chase me or I keep them close?
Why do I ask for their repeated dose!
They remind me of those who I hold dear
Of happy times when they were near
So, yes, probably I hold onto them
As they let me escape to a magical realm
Where all is happy and they’re close
Love and smiles are in overdose
The pain of reality hits me again
They’re not near, so these thoughts are in vain
I gather myself and start to run away
Being chased by those thoughts that don’t obey!
True love is tranquil
It doesn’t make much noise
True love is peaceful
It doesn’t need a strong voice
True love doesn’t give shivers
It gives eternal peace
True love is like a puzzle
In which in place is every piece
True love isn’t demanding
It accepts and forgoes
True love isn’t revengeful
It rejoices and helps to grow
True love doesn’t forget
Whether it’s near or far
True love always stays
Forever fresh in heart
True love is to be cherished
Like the most precious gem
True love should be valued
Above this, that or them
True love brings victory
Even if after a long fight
True love – if it’s around you
Don’t let go – hold onto it tight!
Is it important to know
The answers to it all?
Is it important to be sure
To prepare of what might befall?
Is it not ok to not know?
Tread, not knowing the whereabout
Is it not ok to not see it all?
Just flow, without keeping doubts
Is it not ok to say “I don’t know”
Why should I be expected to know it all?
Is it not ok to say “I’m not sure”?
Without the fear of being judged as small
It should be ok to have incompetencies
To not be a winner always
It should be ok to be a mediocre
Why this race to be first no matter what way!
It should be ok to even fail
If you learn what it has to teach
It should be ok to give it up
If some alternative is within your reach
Less pressure, balanced expectations
A chance to thrive at what we can
No pressure to match upto someone
How amazing will be that life span!!
I do not like these mornings,
When I wake up dreaming about you
It leaves me with an emptiness,
And I don’t know what to do…
Instantaneously I want to reach out
And ask if you’re doing fine
Sanity then comes knocking,
It isn’t in my line…
The warmth of the visions,
Lingers on and on
The taste of us together
Leaves me totally withdrawn
The vividness of the scenes,
Never then, loses my psyche
Hither thither I move,
Trying to settle the spike…
Baffled I am – for why you come to me
Angry I feel – on my stupidity
These are just dreams
No relevance they should have
Then why do I still feel the tingling
Of where you held my hand…!
Nothing which I can do, than to do what I do,
Suppress the storm in me, and handle what’s in view…
I know that YOU know what’s the best for me
Just give me the strength to wait and see
And while I wait for YOU to work it out
May I show patience and don’t fret about
While I wait for YOUR magic to realise
May my trust at YOUR feet get energised
I know that YOU know what will bring me joy
And while I wait, let me enjoy
Grow my faith, let not me wail
Toughen me to face the gales
Embolden me, let me not sigh
I know eventually YOU will fly me high!
Relations – what are they supposed to be
To tie one down, or set us free
To be a steppingstone, or block our way
To let us shine or cast a cloud grey!
Relations – how should they be
A fresh breeze caressing
The first drops of rain
Warmth of winter sun
A key to all chains
A shoulder to lean on
A helping hand in need
A pat on our back
A fall back for deeds
A comforting bed at night
A very warm hug
A ray of light in dark
Never a cold shrug…
Relations – why don’t they offer peace
Why the constant strife?
To feel belonged by them –
Why do I have to lose my piece… by piece…!
Pain comes in many forms
None knows what’s it for the other
Is yours a bigger pain than mine?
Why to ponder on this further?
That which hurts me so much
Might not be a big thing for you
So, do not look down upon me
Because you can’t comprehend why my tears flew
That – which pains you so deep
I promise I’ll try and listen
I won’t belittle you for being sad
Or give you unnecessary reasons
Stop comparing how two differ
Why the other gives it heart
Just be there when one needs you
Simply try to be the kind arc
Next time when one shares with you
With all the needed courage and trust
Try to give a compassionate ear
Not necessarily a solution, but good listening is a must!
It’s not that I don’t want to say
What’s in mind or what’s my art
But I always end up listening to you
As mine you know – is a timid heart
It’s not that I don’t want to show
What talents I have, what I’m good at
The spotlight on me is too much to take
Coz mine you know – is a timid heart
I would like the applause too
Centre stage for my well-played part
But in all probability, I’ll shy away
For mine you know, is a timid heart
I’ve lost chances – they’ve cost me dear
Too late to probably go back to the start
Yes, I agree I could’ve gained more
Hadn’t mine been a timid heart…!
The fearlessness that I always want
The craziness that I dare
The bravest things that I want to say
The deeds – that’ll leave my soul bare
The naughtiness I don’t think I have
The childishness I don’t show
The hearty laughs beneath those sighs
The giggles that don’t come out anymore
The running wild, the freest dance
The skipping, jumping galore
The harmless fun, the mindless acts
Those chances to settle old scores
All these I live in my world of dreams
Where I am not constantly judged
There I can be what I want to be
Without anyone telling me as much
It mind sound all an escapist route
But, it is a route after all
Somewhere, where I am myself
Without any stern protocols
No limits to my thoughts there are
No limits to how I behave
No limits to what I can achieve
And to get everything that I crave!
It is my own sweet world
Which I look forward to as a treat
When after my exhausting day
I lie myself to retreat…!
Today, when I felt hopeless, tired and all low
Battered by life’s challenges, tests and tiring blows
Wanted to give up, just accept my defeat
Wanted to lie low, stop and silently retreat
As I thought to do that, a tiny whisper I heard
Wait, there’s HOPE, why not try, why give up!
Each step that you take, I’ll walk with you along
I know you feel terrified, but I’m there, holding you strong
You may feel you’re all alone, but I’m there holding your hand
You may feel weak, but I’m giving you strength to stand
I know you feel no one listens, you feel abondoned and bereft
But you must believe that by me, you’ll never be left
Don’t fear the challenges, for they bring lessons great
Don’t fear the darkness, for light it surely generates
Keep going, don’t stop, move ahead – a step at a time
Eventually my dear, you’ll be at the summit of the climb!
We are all lonely on this road – all alone
Just walking the path that gets shown
Treading carefully taking a step by step
Nothing helps, how much ever one preps
So just keep walking, but remember to pause
When the going gets tough and you want to withdraw
Take a moment to sit and relax
Let the light creep in from those little cracks…
No matter how it seems with dark clouds above
Through the dull skies you’ll see a ray of love
Wherever you may be no matter how distant
My love will reach to you like a rainbow vibrant
Through the dark clouds, the silver lining that you see
Through the frosty mornings, the little sun that you see
Through the night sky, the bright star that guides you
Through the pitch dark, the tiny light that guides you
Through the scorching heat, the shady tree that you find
Through the dry lands, the fresh stream that you find
Through the tired tears, the tiny strength that you feel
Through the ifs and buts, a giant leap of faith that you feel
Is all my love for you whether me – you see or not see?
Are all my smiles being sent, to wish you good health and glee
No matter how far, no matter how away
My love and wishes always, always will find your way…
Your pain can make you tough or it can make you tremble
Your tears can get you going or hold you in deep shambles
Your agony can fire you or make you weep like a baby
Your past can keep you chained with in your thought a “maybe”
Don’t let your fears rule you
Find a way to fight those blues
Nowhere but forward, you tread
Don’t give up, be a fighter instead!
Who is there to stay?
To stand by you in fray
To not leave your side
Even if your word doesn’t sound right
To fight or argue how much ever
But in your absence will defame you never
To be there when you wanna talk
Beside you, when you wanna walk
Who is there to spread some cheer?
When your days look sad and weird
To meet you and wipe your tear
Hold your hand till the clouds get cleared
Such angels around you if there are
Consider them blessings for they’re the guiding stars
Also strive to be one yourself too
For those who need such angels aren’t few…
I forgive the one who broke my trust
Constantly told blatant lies
Had no love but only lust –
for money, power, and everything wrong
I forgive the one who misled me
With fake smiles and polished words
Shaded the reality from me to see
Hid the truth and his self uncouth
I forgive the one whom I called a friend
But behind my back who badmouthed
What good it did – I do not know
It broke my heart when I got to know it though
I forgive the one who never wished me well
Even when I prayed for them
All those who never were loyal to me
Even when I always stood by them
I forgive the one who plotted and planned
Tried all ways to twist my arm
Did all in their power to send my way
Physical, mental and emotional harm
I also, forgive myself truly
To let such people come to me
To not end – when I finally
Got to see their reality
Yes, I was naive, didn’t know how to
Safeguard myself and not punish me
The gallons cried over such moments
Could’ve been true times of glee
However now I understand
So, I forgive them from my heart
They did what they knew or learnt
Someday they will also face the brunt
No revenge, not even bad feelings
Just want my peace and nothing else
So I forgive and leave it to God
I know that someday time will tell…!
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