In this space, I write not to explain life, but to explore it. Pause with me, linger between the lines, and perhaps you’ll discover a piece of your own story here too. 🙂
With a heart so heavy and eyes so numb
I look at Thee with questions some
Why am I the target of this?
Why do I have to live with this?
When I see clearly what they do to me?
Why can’t I let myself free?
Why do I need to stay chained this way?
I would like to leave, if I may
Did I really choose this for me
If yes, then what is yet to see
To reach where You want me to be
Oh can I reach there sooner please
Make me, before this breaks me
A plea with all my heart to flee
Help me and light my path ahead
Please guide me – like “I will”, You said!
Let my treasure be the service at YOUR feet
Seeing YOUR peaceful form – my only treat
Let my heart pulsate only YOUR name
Just YOU and me for once in a frame
Let all my desires culminate in YOU
Now & forever, with YOU I get glued
Give me the melody to sing YOUR praise
In YOUR showers of blessings, let there be no delays
Let YOUR abode be my ultimate retreat
Resting peacefully at YOUR lotus feet
Resonating YOUR name even in sleep
Experiencing bliss as in YOUR love I weep
Let every breath in me call out to YOU
Each feeling in me so pure and true
That YOU accept me as YOUR very own
and let me be, forever in YOUR zone…!
Love YOU Baba! ❤️
Throughout the night, and throughout the day
I can talk to YOU, if I have my say
Where-ever I go, whichever way
YOUR face I want to see, if I may
Each breath that I take, consciously or not so much
Want to think of YOU, if I’m allowed as such
With every heartbeat reverberating within me
I want to soak myself in YOUR divinity
With every word that I know or have ever learnt
I want to talk to YOU, even if this tongue is burnt
No moment of this life is worthwhile
If YOU haven’t looked at me and smiled
No one can ever be what YOU are
My father, my guru, my Baba – you’re near, even when far…!
Love YOU so much that it makes me cry
With YOUR name I want to be identified
For YOUR association I want to apply
For every inch closer to YOU, I want to try
No one for me to offer the solace
Which YOU provide through YOUR miraculous ways
From dawn to dusk, with each breath that I take
I want to live for YOUR name’s sake
With a wish in me to meet YOU at the end
I’ll happily face all the challenges that this life will send!
Why do YOU this to me?
Why do YOU make me cry?
One look at YOUR pious face
And my heart starts to pry
The meaning of living this life
Away from YOUR divine feet
Why don’t YOU let me merge in YOU
Why don’t you facilitate our meet?
Please let me learn my lessons
Please allow me to have the learnings
Show me the real meaning of my life soon
For this is too strong a yearning
Yes, I feel YOUR presence with me
Yes, YOU have not deserted me
But the heart asks for more
Only with YOU I want to be
With each breath I chant YOUR name
YOU are pulsating within me
My thoughts are now beyond any tame
Come, and let me drown in YOUR sea!
Om Sai Ram!
Where is the peace YOU promised me?
Where is the chance to experience glee?
Where is YOUR perfect world to see?
Where is my chance to be happy and free?
Why this stress and constant grief?
Where is the smile and that relief?
What’s in YOUR mind Oh my dear Chief?
Please tell who is the rotten thief?
Who steals my peace and inner bliss
To know what is this huge amiss
I am today at YOUR lotus feet
That’s why, I am here to meet
Nowhere to go where I get that rest
Clueless I feel how to fare this test
Even after giving my very best
I feel bereft with absolutely no rest
Let me know the role for me
Which will make me feel as if I am free
For right now it’s a struggle YOU see
Give me, for this dead lock a key
With mind set upon YOUR holy self
I look with love towards Thyself
With hope that YOU will come to help
Will offer solace when I will yelp
I feel YOU close in many ways
Get strength through your adoring gaze
I know YOU’re there to hold me straight
My journey YOU will facilitate
No words were needed to communicate
I feel the urge to reciprocate
By exhibiting unwavering trust in YOU
To live this life without any review!
Whether I never understand
I know YOU will always hold my hand
Will lead me where I’m meant to be
A stream – to finally merge in YOUR sea!
Strength – I need to tolerate
Results of hard work as I await
Trying to shine as a star bright
Fighting odds with all my might
Climbing up this cliff so steep
Smiling, though in heart I weep
Splashing my way in a rough tide
Trying to cross this rift so wide
Trying hard to gasp for air
As I fight hard to achieve my share
Ignoring these blisters on feet
Longing for whom I want to meet
Not knowing if there’ll ever be day
I’ll tread upon this pitch dark way
To be, where I want to be
To see, what I want to see
To fly, like a bird so free
To cry, all those tears with glee
Came too far, but not there yet
If I stop now, I’ll ever regret
So I won’t stop until there I get
For meeting who my heart is set
With my heart set upon that hug
Probably then, I’ll too be smug
Till then I have to carry on
Awaiting that – beautiful dawn!
“Why is it that in every relation only I have to give more
Why is it that I have to struggle, a lot before reaching any shore
Why is it that with young or old, only I have to show maturity
Why is it that I have to look so hard, to find the same sincerity
Why is it that I find myself, often bereft and stranded
Why is it that I find myself, always taken for granted
Why is it that my heart so pure, is shredded so badly apart
Why is it those near and dear, before hurting don’t feel aghast
Why is it that I find myself, alone and in tears
Why is it that after doing everything, for me there is no one to hear”
When I ask all of the above, to my beloved Father
HE looks at me calmly, gives a smile without a bother
HE asks me to calm down, to relax and to stop crying
HE pats my head and very gently, wipes off those tears not drying
“Not everyone my child, is blessed with a golden heart
Not everyone my child, in this life knows the kind art
Not everyone my child, is here to do my job
Not everyone my child, through their acts my heart rob
Feel blessed that you’re the one, amongst my very own
Whom I know I can trust, to calm those who moan
Feel blessed that you’re the one, who spread my cheer ahead
Who can feel me within them, my word they spread
Realise that yours the hand, through which I sometimes act
Or sometimes through you I help, to show them the facts
So wipe those freckles my child, for your struggles are the way
Which will bring you closer to me, just keep following this ray
Will you still complain, about those who’re not as you
Will you not carry on my work, as you currently do
I will love you no less, even if you decide to give up
This struggle of being the good one, if you’re so fed up
But if you decide to carry on, my work my dear child
Then keep forgiving those, who don’t treat you so mild
For they yet don’t understand, what you already do
So keep leading the way, they surely will follow too
And always remember my child, that I am and will surely be there
To guide you, hold you, love you, you need not look elsewhere”
With my heart full of gratitude, I bow down at HIS feet
I feel embarrassed I tell HIM, that for complaining I’d come to meet
“I very much will continue on the path that YOU’ve shown
I feel proud of only one thing – that I am one of those you own
Even though I’ll get hurt, in future as in past
I promise YOU my Father, YOUR words will give me the stregth to last…
YOUR words will give me the strength to last…
YOUR words will give me the strength to last…”
Looking at YOU, I bow down my head
Folding hands, I present my heart’s shreds
Praying to YOU, I seek strength
To cross this life’s enormous length
Seeking YOU, I start my day
Thanking YOU, I see the last ray
Thinking YOU, I act night & day
Only YOUR teachings, paving my way
YOUR presence in my life is the thing
Which gives my timid heart such wings
Which helps me soar above the tests
In my quest to be YOUR very best
YOUR love in my heart keeps it beating
Ruled by the desire for the divine meeting
YOUR enigmatic persona charms my mind
YOUR calming smile, helps me unwind
I love YOU from each heartbeat in me
I desire YOU with every breath to be
I want YOU in every sight that I see
Only YOUR face is what gives me glee
Embrace me now, don’t make me wait
Engulf me now, in thyself so great
Make me YOURS, completely my Lord
Let me hear only YOUR melodious chord
Love you my Baba, my Guru, my life
With you along, I don’t care for strife
I am YOUR child and want to merge in YOU
In YOUR mighty rose, like a drop of dew!
Wear a smile, start your day
Seek blessings, you’ll find your way
Have faith, show belief
HE will listen, you’ll find relief
Learn to pray, and show your trust
HE will answer, HE is very just
Have hope, and stop whining
‘Coz every cloud, has a silver lining
Wait patiently, for the time to come
For some it’s early, it’s bit late for some
All are HIS children, HE loves one and all
What’s yours will come to you, good luck will befall!
In this first hour of the new year
I bow down at YOUR feet
YOUR sound is what I want to hear
YOUR blessings is what I seek
YOUR sight to guide me along
No one else do I desire
Your voice should be my only song
No other sound can give that fire
I love YOU and want YOU around me
Heart aches to have YOU very near
YOUR hand on my head, YOUR light guiding me
Then none is that I will fear!
This world needs more peace
And more love in heart for each other
I pray onto thy feet
To teach people to – Live and, let live without any bother!
With You by my side, I can face any rough tide
With You by my side, troubles can become a joy ride
With You by my side, even in dark I can find a way
With You by my side, night will also look like a day
With You along, life surely is a melodious song
With You along, what I deserve won’t take long
With You along, life has a guidance for sure
With You along, even the end seems to lure
With You as my guide, to the right ways I abide
With You as my guide, makes me feel immense pride
With You as my guide, I feel confident my Lord
With You as my guide, I know I can face the odds
With Your support my Father, I want to spread sunshine
With Your support my Father, I want to caress those who whine
With Your support my Father, I wish to bring some positive change
With Your support my Father, I wish to in good engage
Just one more wish my Baba I still have unfulfilled
In You I want to soak and in You I want to get mixed
Please help me reach You soon and till then please hold my hand
Make me worthy of Your love and let me soon reach Your pious land!
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