Sonal's Poems

In this space, I write not to explain life, but to explore it. Pause with me, linger between the lines, and perhaps you’ll discover a piece of your own story here too. 🙂

Author: Sonal

  • Dreams of you…!

    I do not like these mornings,

    When I wake up dreaming about you

    It leaves me with an emptiness,

    And I don’t know what to do…

    Instantaneously I want to reach out

    And ask if you’re doing fine

    Sanity then comes knocking,

    It isn’t in my line… 

    The warmth of the visions,

    Lingers on and on

    The taste of us together

    Leaves me totally withdrawn

    The vividness of the scenes, 

    Never then, loses my psyche

    Hither thither I move,

    Trying to settle the spike…

    Baffled I am – for why you come to me

    Angry I feel – on my stupidity

    These are just dreams

    No relevance they should have

    Then why do I still feel the tingling

    Of where you held my hand…!

    Nothing which I can do, than to do what I do,

    Suppress the storm in me, and handle what’s in view… 

  • I know that YOU know…!

    I know that YOU know what’s the best for me

    Just give me the strength to wait and see

    And while I wait for YOU to work it out

    May I show patience and don’t fret about

    While I wait for YOUR magic to realise

    May my trust at YOUR feet get energised

    I know that YOU know what will bring me joy

    And while I wait, let me enjoy

    Grow my faith, let not me wail

    Toughen me to face the gales

    Embolden me, let me not sigh

    I know eventually YOU will fly me high!

  • Let’s rekindle…!

    There was a time when we were ‘us’

    Talking to you wasn’t a fuss

    There was laughter, fun and merry times

    Soul talk, we totally rhymed

    Steps in sync and thoughts that matched

    Endearing words, not from the heart detached 

    While our silence also sounded pleasing

    Our words were comforting and looks weren’t freezing

    I can’t remember when and how

    Things changed to what is now

    The agony of not reaching there

    Seeing the absence of the much-needed care 

    Leaves me with options none 

    But the dull days, want to see some sun

    Major missing of that endearing solace

    I wish I knew what to mend and in what ways

    For I loathe to see what has become

    Come let’s rekindle before we finally to it succumb…

  • Standing in the shadows…!

    I stood there totally unnoticed

    While my world slipped away

    What strength I showed to be there

    How much I had to pray…! 

    I wanted you to look my way

    And realise my love

    To hear you call my name just once

    Was my wish all above…!

    I hoped for things to change their course

    What was happening wasn’t right

    It was, as if, I was in the midst of a storm

    All I could do, was to hold on tight

    My heart raced and seemed to explode

    Why wasn’t anyone able to hear

    The horrendous sound which it was making

    My gosh, it was too much to bear…!

    Merry words, songs, and dance

    Drinks, cheer and smiles

    You looked – so, very happy

    I shivered there in the aisles…!

    How I managed to curve my lips

    With my eyes still full of tears

    I didn’t want to show me weak

    “I’ll cry” – was my biggest fear…! 

    None there saw my face

    No one could make out my exhaustion

    Once I was done with plesantries

    I retired in my isolation…! 

    As I looked back I had silently hoped

    Atleast then you will ask me to stay

    But no, it was not to be

    For you hardly looked my way…! 

    What made me think it was for me

    What gave me such false hope

    Who was to blame for my broken heart

    Why wasn’t I taught how to cope…! 

    I didn’t know what happened then

    For days I hardly tended to self

    Though years have passed since 

    I doubt I have still mended myself…! 

    What haunts me even now is

    Why did you come my way

    If you never to be mine

    Why my heart had to betray…! 

    Standing in the shadows then

    And watching all the mirth

    Robbed me of my smile

    Made me doubt my self-worth…! 

    Standing in the shadows then

    And watching me being overlooked

    On my tender soul

    A very heavy toll it took…!

    Standing in the shadows then

    And watching you chose otherwise

    Broke my heart into zillions

    My silly dreams I had despised…! 

    Standing in the shadows then

    And watching those who were mine

    Leaving me with daggers 

    Yet expecting me to be fine…!

    Want to leave those shadows behind

    Want to disassociate from the pain

    For they shouldn’t define me

    Why do I need to refrain…!

    I am open to my smiles again

    No more of this game for me

    I am no longer an option

    Standing in the shadows – no, not anymore for me…!

  • Heart all pure…!

    I share smiles, and try to spread a cheer

    I give a helping hand, to whoever needs a peer

    I try to bring solace, where and when I see a tear

    If someone needs a vent, I offer a kind ear

    I try not to judge, I try not to loathe

    I am also not quick in letting people go

    I show love and care, I try to stay true

    I stand by my friends in their glooms and blues

     

    Sometimes I wonder why I don’t find it back!

    What is my shortcoming, where do I lack?

    Should I change how I am and how I behave?

    Should I close all doors when next they come my way? 

    But no, I don’t think, I’ll ever be good at that

    I’ll always care for them, no matter they break my heart

    It was never between me and them, I know that for sure

    Ultimately SOMEONE, will see my heart all pure!

  • Reverie…!

    Every morning when I wake up
    And want to say hello
    Every time I have words to say
    That I want you to know
    Every minute that brings a smile
    Only you’ll understand
    Every memory which comes knocking
    Under your command
    Accentuates my yearning
    Makes me feel it even more
    How very much I miss you
    Shocks my very core…!

  • Relations…!

    Relations – what are they supposed to be

    To tie one down, or set us free

    To be a steppingstone, or block our way 

    To let us shine or cast a cloud grey!

    Relations – how should they be

    A fresh breeze caressing

    The first drops of rain

    Warmth of winter sun

    A key to all chains

    A shoulder to lean on

    A helping hand in need

    A pat on our back

    A fall back for deeds 

    A comforting bed at night

    A very warm hug

    A ray of light in dark

    Never a cold shrug… 

    Relations – why don’t they offer peace

    Why the constant strife? 

    To feel belonged by them – 

    Why do I have to lose my piece… by piece…!

  • Pain…!

    Pain comes in many forms
    None knows what’s it for the other
    Is yours a bigger pain than mine?
    Why to ponder on this further?

    That which hurts me so much
    Might not be a big thing for you
    So, do not look down upon me
    Because you can’t comprehend why my tears flew

    That – which pains you so deep
    I promise I’ll try and listen
    I won’t belittle you for being sad
    Or give you unnecessary reasons

    Stop comparing how two differ
    Why the other gives it heart
    Just be there when one needs you
    Simply try to be the kind arc

    Next time when one shares with you
    With all the needed courage and trust
    Try to give a compassionate ear
    Not necessarily a solution, but good listening is a must!

  • My timid heart…!

    It’s not that I don’t want to say

    What’s in mind or what’s my art

    But I always end up listening to you

    As mine you know – is a timid heart 

    It’s not that I don’t want to show

    What talents I have, what I’m good at

    The spotlight on me is too much to take

    Coz mine you know – is a timid heart

    I would like the applause too

    Centre stage for my well-played part

    But in all probability, I’ll shy away

    For mine you know, is a timid heart

    I’ve lost chances – they’ve cost me dear

    Too late to probably go back to the start

    Yes, I agree I could’ve gained more

    Hadn’t mine been a timid heart…!

  • Probably, silence…!

    Last night when I dreamt of you

    As usual I wanted to tell you all

    In my heightened exuberance

    Of our silence I had no recall

    It hit me like a wave – 

    Ceased me, & totally knocked me out

    Was I never meaningful to you!

    Slithering in came all the recurring doubts

    How things changed, how we drifted 

    You said we were the best of pals

    I thought it was my safe heaven

    Then what happened has no rationale

    My heart is shattered you know

    Ego too stands in the way

    Want to run back to what we had

    But how to make my heart feel okay! 

    Wish it was easy to fight and ask 

    To say my words and hear you too

    Even when we didn’t agree – 

    How could you distance me from you! 

    Questions will remain and I will retreat

    For I don’t think I can make me say

    It’s better to dwell and continue to pose

    Than to exhibit me all sad and frail!

  • My own sweet world…!

    The fearlessness that I always want
    The craziness that I dare
    The bravest things that I want to say
    The deeds – that’ll leave my soul bare
    The naughtiness I don’t think I have
    The childishness I don’t show
    The hearty laughs beneath those sighs
    The giggles that don’t come out anymore
    The running wild, the freest dance
    The skipping, jumping galore
    The harmless fun, the mindless acts
    Those chances to settle old scores

    All these I live in my world of dreams
    Where I am not constantly judged
    There I can be what I want to be
    Without anyone telling me as much
    It mind sound all an escapist route
    But, it is a route after all
    Somewhere, where I am myself
    Without any stern protocols
    No limits to my thoughts there are
    No limits to how I behave
    No limits to what I can achieve
    And to get everything that I crave!
    It is my own sweet world
    Which I look forward to as a treat
    When after my exhausting day
    I lie myself to retreat…!

  • Extranged Friends…!

    I wonder when I think of you

    What made you do what you did

    I self-doubt and always brood

    Was I wrong or were we always a misfit

    Sometimes I think I took you too seriously

    When all you wanted was frivolous laugh

    Didn’t want you just for fun sadly

    I had in mind a serious draft

    Whether I was wrong or you had a part too

    I do miss our time my friend

    A soul connection is what I felt with you

    And wish you realise it too at some bend…!

  • Always, YOU…!

    This year, that year, every year
    With You always, absolutely near
    Holding Your hand as I walk on
    Chanting Your name, humming Your song

    No one can understand what You do for me
    Your loving grace, hope everyone can see
    Make me worthy of being Your tool
    To spread Your grace, Your loving rules

    Teach me Sai to live by You
    To see Your self in every view
    In each of my life’s rendezvous
    May I choose You, just always YOU!

    🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

  • You Are On Your Own…!

    You might feel you have someone

    To give you company on this run

    To hold your hand when you’re low

    To let you grieve when you face the blow

    You might feel you have a friend 

    Who’ll be with you till the very end

    To walk with you when you need a hand

    To face the adversity of a challenging land

    You might feel you have it in control

    The ups, the downs – you won’t be alone

    The people around you truly care

    You’re well received in their affairs

    When however, the mirage fades

    You get to see the real shades

    You’re left bereft of even an explanation

    For some time, there isn’t a sensation 

    Bare and empty, with a hole in the heart

    You want to erase your entire part

    However – you know, even though you moan 

    On this life’s path – YOU ARE ON YOUR OWN!

  • My Journey…!

    YOU said, love will win love

    Then why did I get shoved

    YOU said, care will get care

    Then why didn’t I get my share 

    YOU said, loyalty will get returned

    Why then was I shunned

    YOU said, pure heart can win anyone

    Why then was I left stunned

    YOU said honesty won’t be treated as dirt

    Still, every time, it ends in hurt

    You said, the path of justice will be rough

    However, not that it will be so, excessively tough!

    I do feel lonely on this path of righteousness

    Feel tired and an accompanying loneliness

    The only hope which keeps me going

    Is that You’re walking with me, my boat You’re rowing

    I might not see You, but You’re holding my hand

    I know that someday, my journey I’ll understand…

  • Hope – a tiny whisper..!

    Today, when I felt hopeless, tired and all low

    Battered by life’s challenges, tests and tiring blows

    Wanted to give up, just accept my defeat

    Wanted to lie low, stop and silently retreat

    As I thought to do that, a tiny whisper I heard

    Wait, there’s HOPE, why not try, why give up! 

    Each step that you take, I’ll walk with you along

    I know you feel terrified, but I’m there, holding you strong

    You may feel you’re all alone, but I’m there holding your hand

    You may feel weak, but I’m giving you strength to stand

    I know you feel no one listens, you feel abondoned and bereft

    But you must believe that by me, you’ll never be left 

    Don’t fear the challenges, for they bring lessons great

    Don’t fear the darkness, for light it surely generates

    Keep going, don’t stop, move ahead – a step at a time

    Eventually my dear, you’ll be at the summit of the climb!

  • These walls…!

    These walls that I’ve built, aren’t what I wished for

    Within which I am hiding, with my wounds sore 

    Will these walls protect me from any further hurt?

    I hope the next pain comes only after an alert!

    Thought you were someone with whom I’ll share

    Thought you were someone who truly cares

    But you actually forced me into building these tough walls

    The pain which you gave, was actually – the biggest of all

    These walls are comforting in a peculiar way

    Atleast they don’t change colours every single day

    Brick by brick for my sanity

    Will this wall help me get some clarity?!

  • Road alone…!

    We are all lonely on this road – all alone

    Just walking the path that gets shown

    Treading carefully taking a step by step

    Nothing helps, how much ever one preps

    So just keep walking, but remember to pause

    When the going gets tough and you want to withdraw

    Take a moment to sit and relax

    Let the light creep in from those little cracks…

  • The same hurt…!

    I don’t know how I forget

    How always you behaved so curt

    Why on earth do I let myself

    Go back to the same hurt!

    I wonder what made me forget

    Those things that I’d heard

    Then how on earth do I let myself

    Go back to the same hurt!

    I must be crazy to forget

    Your selfish deeds and words

    Really silly of me I know

    To go back to the same hurt!

    Why did I think you’ve changed

    Why did I expect a U-turn 

    Must be truly crazy of me

    To get back to the same hurt!

    How long till I learn my lesson

    How long till I give up

    Why don’t I learn to discount you

    And stop going back to the same hurt!

    Gradually you’re also improving

    As each time you outdo your worse

    Still, like a mad person that I am

    I land myself in the same hurt! 

    High time I give up on you

    High time I understand my worth

    High time I do whatever is needed

    And stop going back to the same hurt! 

    Sometimes out of courtesy

    Other times due to my soft heart

    Even, because I don’t know

    This horrible, hurtful art

    I’ve given enough second chances

    Enough excuses to your erratic self

    No more, I’ll keep reminding myself

    Just STOP – going back to the same hurt!

  • Disloyal Friendship…!

    I am always happy for you, then how come you’re not for me?
    I am always genuine with you, then how come you’re so fake to see?
    I always offer you full support, but where are you in my need?
    I give you my loyalty, then why do you not give it back to me?

    I’ve always been a true friend, your lies but have cheated me!
    I’ve always had your back, your actions but have blemished me!
    I’ve wished you well from the heart, but you’re caught demeaning me!
    I’ve been your true friend, your friendship but has hypocrisy!

    I get hurt and feel so sad
    Yet nothing which I can do frankly
    Can wish that you never receive
    Friendship filled with disloyalty!