Sonal's Poems

In this space, I write not to explain life, but to explore it. Pause with me, linger between the lines, and perhaps you’ll discover a piece of your own story here too. 🙂

Author: Sonal

  • Adieu Past!

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    I want to know what will it take

    For this misery to finally shake

    Want to focus on what I can

    Than to see how much I’ve ran

    Want to enjoy what’s there in hand

    Not to cry where else I could’ve stand

    Want to feel the love which is there –

    and to get rid of this feeling of despair

    Want to let go of what really hurts

    Just something which can help divert

    This trail of thoughts which hurts so much

    Done waiting for that magic touch

    Want to see what lies with me

    Done with thinking what could’ve been 

    No point at all in sulking more

    Want to close all those past doors

    Happiness to be in my own hands

    Acting on no one else’s commands

    Want to live right here, right now

    No misery now I want to allow

    Respecting what was given to me

    Will try to abide by Thy decree

    Just bless my efforts to stay on track 

    Not to turn over and go right back

    To where again I’ll feel so weak

    Chances of recovery will be so bleak

    Looking ahead I will smile at last

    Saying adieu to my sad past! 

  • With Love for YOU, My Baba…!

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    Let my treasure be the service at YOUR feet 

    Seeing YOUR peaceful form – my only treat

    Let my heart pulsate only YOUR name

    Just YOU and me for once in a frame

    Let all my desires culminate in YOU

    Now & forever, with YOU I get glued

    Give me the melody to sing YOUR praise

    In YOUR showers of blessings, let there be no delays

    Let YOUR abode be my ultimate retreat

    Resting peacefully at YOUR lotus feet

    Resonating YOUR name even in sleep

    Experiencing bliss as in YOUR love I weep

    Let every breath in me call out to YOU

    Each feeling in me so pure and true

    That YOU accept me as YOUR very own

    and let me be, forever in YOUR zone…!

                                                                      Love YOU Baba! ❤️

  • Orphan, this one! :(

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    All alone on this path as I tread

    Can’t remember when last I was fed

    No care, no love, no one who said

    “Come here my child, let me put you to bed”

    Fending for myself, alone on the streets

    No fuss, no tantrum, no one dancing on my beats

    No pampering, no gifts, no toys or treats

    With open arms, no one who meets

    Sobbing tears if I ever feel weak

    Where do I go, which shelter to seek

    Who is there to kiss my cheek

    To say, “My dear, you’re truly unique!”

    I sometimes feel very scared

    As I live on streets exposed and bare

    Is there not even one here or there?

    The warmth of an abode with me who can share

    Whom to complain if I ever want to

    How I wish for a door to go through 

    To live a life, totally different and new

    To have all the things which currently are few

    Not easy it is to live all alone

    Famished always, body like a bone

    Callously ignored & on the streets thrown

    Before being a child, feeling all grown

    Why this bias, getting punished for what?

    Why have I been sent – is it only to rot?

    Did YOU send me here and just forgot?

    To fend for myself I’ve all alone fought!

    I have some dreams, even I want to live

    I am sure for me, YOU have something to give

    If I was ever wrong, now please forgive 

    Small favours only, nothing that I need is too big

    A family to love, someone to care

    Someone who’ll lovingly stroke my hair

    And as I tread out, this time to learn 

    Someone – who’ll wait for even my return! 

  • For us, this is not the end…!

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    Even now, after many years

    This heart doesn’t seem to bear

    The loss which it undertook

    Even after the years flown as brook

    You came, and left – all so swiftly

    I shouldn’t have behaved timidly

    But no one told me that it will pass

    If I don’t show courage to cross my grass

    You were so near, yet I didn’t reach out

    Now too far to hear – even if I shout

    Your loving glance which made me melt

    Want to feel once more, how then I felt

    Well, life will pass and time will flow

    Years will pass, fast or slow

    Memories though of you in me

    Will stay afresh, till times to be…

    Near or far doesn’t matter now

    My wishes for you, stay strong anyhow

    Vibes are felt and prayers are said

    Cards are written, even though unread

    Happiness is wished and blessings sent

    Your good in heart, my truest intent

    Live and laugh, now and always my friend

    For us, I know, this is NOT THE END! 

  • Forgotten not…!

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    Come here and listen dear child

    It’s easy to get spoilt and wild

    Temptations will lure and vices will call

    You’ll need to face them strong & tall

    There’s enough out there to beckon you

    Enchanting things which you’ll find all new

    At first all these will shine & gleam

    Getting them will become your dream

    Before you’ll know, you’ll get entrapped

    Watch out – before you get all zapped

    Not all that shines turns out as gold

    Watch where you go, oh please behold

    It very easy to get tripped you see

    At first you’ll feel ecstatic with glee

    But pleasures such, don’t hold for long 

    They entice you towards the forbidden & wrong

    I’ll show you what you truly should be

    An alternative, which you should see

    It may not seem attractive at first

    Not a path which is well-rehearsed

    But this is which will give pure joy

    In true sense you’ll then enjoy

    How wondrous it is to spread a smile

    So, stop and appreciate for a while

    The merits you should try and seize

    When vices knock, let the moment freeze

    Take a while – to think it through 

    Time will come to start anew

    So, let those pass which lead you astray

    Try and pave your own good way

    Saying no to bad might leave you alone

    Might’ve to walk the path less shown

    But the joy it will bring will be there to last

    Won’t vanish in a moment of blast

    Good path my child might seem uphill

    Just pause and then gather your will

    For once, that you will start to go

    The happiness earned will not forgo

    Be kind and help more and more

    Only good deeds are carried ashore

     

    Laugh and live to your heart’s content

    Make friends, learn skills & have no repent

    Learn sports and be friends with books

    Don’t ever judge anyone by his looks

    Be wise, but not cunning ever

    To guide and steer, say no never

    Read, play, run and be merry

    From over brooding, be very wary

     

    Be good, do good and laugh a lot

    And let these words be forgotten not…! 

  • Reminiscing…!

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    So tired of untying the endless knots

    Instead YOU should’ve said – “rather not”

    To things which I probably didn’t deserve

    If they were for – someone else reserved

    To have and still not is a bigger misery

    I would rather, not have and remain free

    This tryst of destiny is very strange

    Not meant for me, these things in range

    Beguiling it is, beyond my grasp

    How come I got chained in this trap

    Laughing sometimes, at what has come to

    Want to start all over anew

    Will YOU help me – this one time last

    Make me forget the agonising past

    Give me words as fresh as dew

    To write a song with no residue! 

  • No More Trying…!

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    You always just told me what I am not

    Never appreciated what I’ve got

    I kept on trying to prove my worth

    Precious years of life now seem wasted as dirt

    Compromising what was important to me

    I tried to be what you wanted me to be

    Knowing  otherwise, but still agreeing with you

    Just to get some peace in lieu

    Fighting with self many a times

    To make you happy I tried to mime

    Compromised with values close to my heart

    Gradually from myself I grew apart 

    Losing my self-worth happened with time 

    Emotions became super sublime

    Angry at the world, angry at my God

    I only worked towards getting your nod

    No meaning was there till I realized

    For whose peace did I sacrifice?

    When those whom I thought I am trying to please

    Are still thinking that I did nothing supreme!

    Woken from a dream with a strong jolt

    I have to put those, behind a bolt

    Not to let them steal anymore

    My smile, my peace, my life – like before  

    Need to restart, I know it will take me long 

    – Before I can write a new life song

    Bit by bit, piece by piece

    I will ultimately find my peace 

    No matter what it takes, how tough it will be

    I will regain my self-esteem eventually

    No more trying hard to be the good one

    After all, to prove me wrong was your fun!

    So even while parting I’ll give, not take 

    Let you be a martyr for your happiness’ sake

    I choose my peace above proving to be good

    For I know I’ve tried as best as I could… 

  • YOU, My Sai…!

    Sai

    Throughout the night, and throughout the day

    I can talk to YOU, if I have my say

    Where-ever I go, whichever way

    YOUR face I want to see, if I may

    Each breath that I take, consciously or not so much

    Want to think of YOU, if I’m allowed as such

    With every heartbeat reverberating within me

    I want to soak myself in YOUR divinity

    With every word that I know or have ever learnt

    I want to talk to YOU, even if this tongue is burnt

    No moment of this life is worthwhile 

    If YOU haven’t looked at me and smiled

    No one can ever be what YOU are

    My father, my guru, my Baba – you’re near, even when far…!

    Love YOU so much that it makes me cry

    With YOUR name I want to be identified

    For YOUR association I want to apply

    For every inch closer to YOU, I want to try

    No one for me to offer the solace

    Which YOU provide through YOUR miraculous ways

    From dawn to dusk, with each breath that I take

    I want to live for YOUR name’s sake

    With a wish in me to meet YOU at the end

    I’ll happily face all the challenges that this life will send! 

  • Distanced Love…

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    We don’t have to live together,

    To continue to love each other…

    Far away but connected,

    Yes, without you I fretted

    But the warmth of your love stayed 

    Your feelings in me never got slayed

    I got anxious when you left

    Life felt totally bereft

    But even when far you explained

    Meaning of true love I attained

    Yes, we don’t have to live together 

    To continue to love each other…

    With every heartbeat in me

    I’ll love you and will always be

    Sunshine to your sun

    You, the only one

    Who makes me go weak and yet, so strong

    What you’ve made me understand, cannot be wrong

    With your true love in heart

    With the knowledge of this new art

    Though we won’t live together,

    But we’ll continue to love each other…! 

  • Mourning…!

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    My life is still, I don’t feel a thing

    With you gone, for me there’s nothing

    Heart’s so numb, no song to sing

    This sudden blow, snatched away everything

    Life’s unfair and I feel robbed

    Uncontrollably, I have sobbed 

    All my dreams now feel shattered

    Heart is ripped and totally battered

    There’s no hope that I’ll see you again 

    This horrid fact won’t leave me sane

    In your memories forever chained

    I’ll call for you as eyes will rain

    Nowhere that I’ll get respite

    No soothing touch to ease my fright

    Your face is nowhere in my sight

    I want to run into your light

    Thorns of memories prick me hard

    Your chapter I should now discard

    Forever hurt and totally scarred

    I’ll miss your care and constant guard

    I’ll long for you to call my name

    I’ll cling to you with no speck of shame

    Just come back once, rise up to life

    Or hand me too a blade or knife

    Take me along as you pass the shore

    I won’t ask for anything more

    Without you in this world what holds

    Even if it shines as gold

    No, I don’t accept this fact of destiny

    It all appears to be only a felony

    How will I ever in life’s game fare

    Wish it all turns out to be just a nightmare

    Leave me alone to mourn oh world

    Me, myself in his memories curled

    Don’t call, don’t come, don’t bother for me

    For now what more can happen you see! 

  • Let me drown in YOUR sea…!

    Baba

     

    Why do YOU this to me?

    Why do YOU make me cry?

    One look at YOUR pious face

    And my heart starts to pry

    The meaning of living this life

    Away from YOUR divine feet

    Why don’t YOU let me merge in YOU

    Why don’t you facilitate our meet?

    Please let me learn my lessons

    Please allow me to have the learnings

    Show me the real meaning of my life soon

    For this is too strong a yearning

    Yes, I feel YOUR presence with me

    Yes, YOU have not deserted me

    But the heart asks for more

    Only with YOU I want to be

    With each breath I chant YOUR name

    YOU are pulsating within me

    My thoughts are now beyond any tame

    Come, and let me drown in YOUR sea!

    Om Sai Ram!

  • Blissful Nature…!

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    I feel a bliss as I rest here

    Chirping birds within my sphere

    Giggles around of happy kids

    Warm sunshine upon us slid

    Warming my heart all along

    As I sit here murmuring a song

    Looking around fills me with bliss

    As the lovely breeze plants me a kiss

    The trees dance rejoicing too

    Those who frown in such bliss will be few 

    As I will smile at a stranger who passes

    He too will start to look through my glasses

    The hide & seek of sun and clouds

    Leads us to believe a mystery shrouds

    The swerving leaves try a chat

    With people sitting below on a mat

    Up and upon as I start to tread

    Mesmerized on the road that led

  • I am Ready…!

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    At daybreak, as I open my eyes

    I wonder what ahead of me lies

    Will the day bring in grief or everlasting joy

    Will there be a moment to make me say, “Oh boy!”

    Will the day be exciting, and surprise me

    Or will it be mundane with nothing new to see

    Will there be smiles or only misery

    Or something which will poke, cherished memories

    Thinking upon this, I wonder how it is

    Each new day, is a kind of a quiz

    A new visitor daily, knocking at our door

    Up to us to welcome it, frown or do more

    If we manage to smile and welcome our guest

    Half the problem is solved, and day is better addressed

    On the other hand, if we happen to frown and cry

    And welcome our guest with a deep, worrying sigh

    Things start going wrong, a vicious circle it becomes

    Sooner than one should, to the challenge we succumb

    Well begun is half done, is an old saying

    To give oneself a kick-start, there is no harm in obeying

    The words of wisdom well proven with time

    No harm if successful actions we mime

    So I thought I’ll welcome what life throws at me

    With gratitude and strength I’ll try to agree

    With all that life’s to offer today and everyday

    Yes, I’ll give my best, whatever come along the way…

  • In You My Peace…!

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    Come, hold my hand and lead me there

    You and I can live all our dreams where

    Singing our love song without one bother

    We stay entwined in our love forever 

    Flying high, soaring in the sky

    With no one to ask on anything – why

    Where we can live, absolutely carefree

    Holding hands we’ll run with glee

     

    Seeing myself in your eyes forever

    I wouldn’t want another thing ever

    Together we’ll dance the way none did

    From dusk until the next dawn slid

    No worry in heart, no tear to shed

    Let’s pen a story which has never been said

    Reaching out for the rainbow along with you

    Riding a cloud, and enjoying the view

    Wrapped in your arms enjoying the embrace 

    Drinking through my eyes every inch of your face

    And then when I’ll sleep with total release

    Ultimately in you, I’ll find my peace! 

     

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  • God and me…!

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    Where is the peace YOU promised me?

    Where is the chance to experience glee?

    Where is YOUR perfect world to see?

    Where is my chance to be happy and free?

    Why this stress and constant grief?

    Where is the smile and that relief?

    What’s in YOUR mind Oh my dear Chief?

    Please tell who is the rotten thief?

    Who steals my peace and inner bliss

    To know what is this huge amiss

    I am today at YOUR lotus feet

    That’s why, I am here to meet

    Nowhere to go where I get that rest

    Clueless I feel how to fare this test

    Even after giving my very best

    I feel bereft with absolutely no rest 

    Let me know the role for me

    Which will make me feel as if I am free

    For right now it’s a struggle YOU see

    Give me, for this dead lock a key

    With mind set upon YOUR holy self

    I look with love towards Thyself

    With hope that YOU will come to help

    Will offer solace when I will yelp

    I feel YOU close in many ways

    Get strength through your adoring gaze

    I know YOU’re there to hold me straight

    My journey YOU will facilitate 

    No words were needed to communicate

    I feel the urge to reciprocate

    By exhibiting unwavering trust in YOU

    To live this life without any review!

    Whether I never understand 

    I know YOU will always hold my hand

    Will lead me where I’m meant to be

    A stream – to finally merge in YOUR sea! 

  • I’ll live anyhow…

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    No thump, no thud, no click of key

    You left me just so silently

    No caution or a goodbye too

    Now tell me what am I supposed to do?

    How to fill this void and carry on

    What is left of me is sad and lone

    World will carry on as nothing left

    Though I’ve lost all and feel bereft 

    This anger inside growing strong

    Nothing in place, all seems so wrong

    I feel as if I am walking in sleep

    Not my life, in other territory I creep

    Where to look for you and set things right

    Oh come back- promise I won’t fight

    Let me atleast convey to you

    How much my dear, I still love You

    Didn’t know I won’t get another chance 

    I detest this tragic circumstance

    I just want to have another glance

    Are you really gone or am I in trance?

    I wasn’t ready to deal with this

    What on earth I did to deserve the amiss

    To breathe, seems a heavy task

    To live, I will need a mask

    For I too died when you chose to go

    Leaving my life in this utter furore

    Bless me from where you’re now

    With your memories, I’ll live anyhow! 

  • Say it when you can…!

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    Before the words run out

    And you won’t be able to shout

    Before your throat goes dry

    And your voice gives way to a cry

    Don’t keep looking for a plan

    Just say it when you can!

    Let not that worry hold you back

    Keep that hesitation on the rack

    Let no bother stop you from it

    Keep in mind this tiny bit

    Don’t deter from your action plan

    Just say it when you can!

    That long held apology in your mind

    Or those words of love you wanted to find

    A complain which you wanted to make

    Or face those people in your circle so fake

    Don’t let the mishaps change your plan

    Just say it when you can! 

    Before you realize that it’s got too late

    From your loved ones you might separate

    Before the chance given runs out

    From your decision, keep away the doubt

    Don’t sway from your decided plan

    Just say it when you can! 

    Listen to that inner voice speaking

    The true sense from within you leaking

    Seek those whom you want to speak to

    Whisper or shriek but just try to get through

    Don’t deter from your strength to stand

    Just say it when you can! 

  • Awaiting that beautiful dawn…!

    Strength – I need to tolerate

    Results of hard work as I await

    Trying to shine as a star bright

    Fighting odds with all my might

    Climbing up this cliff so steep

    Smiling, though in heart I weep

    Splashing my way in a rough tide

    Trying to cross this rift so wide

    Trying hard to gasp for air

    As I fight hard to achieve my share

    Ignoring these blisters on feet

    Longing for whom I want to meet

    Not knowing if there’ll ever be day

    I’ll tread upon this pitch dark way

    To be, where I want to be

    To see, what I want to see

    To fly, like a bird so free

    To cry, all those tears with glee

    Came too far, but not there yet

    If I stop now, I’ll ever regret

    So I won’t stop until there I get

    For meeting who my heart is set

    With my heart set upon that hug

    Probably then, I’ll too be smug

    Till then I have to carry on

    Awaiting that – beautiful dawn!

  • Me, Without you…!

    I wonder when I think of you – what made you change so much
    From when you used to live me through – how come now attitude such
    From when we talked night and day – without any bother
    To now when there is no word from you – no hello or any other
    From when you used to say to me – that you’ll never ever forget me
    Why to this, what’s happening now – was it all too suddenly?
    From so much that we used to say – so much that we used to hear
    To now this distance between us – too heart-piercing to bear
    I know the limitations – I know why you can’t tell
    But how you live without a word to me – on this I often dwell
    No one can take the past away – the memories of when we spoke
    Smiling and ever strong to see – I’ll hide the facts under a cloak
    Me, without you – no fun, no cheer
    With each breath – I wish you were here!

  • Oh, please tell me!

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    Who am I to you please tell me

    If no one, then let me be free

    My fragile state, can’t you see?

    Tears in heart, on face –  a false glee

    Shown down, broken apart

    Shred into pieces, my timid heart

    Now no more, I have no strength

    To continue like this, another length

    So, let me know what you see for us

    A life apart, for one without this fuss!