Sonal's Poems

In this space, I write not to explain life, but to explore it. Pause with me, linger between the lines, and perhaps you’ll discover a piece of your own story here too. 🙂

Author: Sonal

  • Me, Without you…!

    I wonder when I think of you – what made you change so much
    From when you used to live me through – how come now attitude such
    From when we talked night and day – without any bother
    To now when there is no word from you – no hello or any other
    From when you used to say to me – that you’ll never ever forget me
    Why to this, what’s happening now – was it all too suddenly?
    From so much that we used to say – so much that we used to hear
    To now this distance between us – too heart-piercing to bear
    I know the limitations – I know why you can’t tell
    But how you live without a word to me – on this I often dwell
    No one can take the past away – the memories of when we spoke
    Smiling and ever strong to see – I’ll hide the facts under a cloak
    Me, without you – no fun, no cheer
    With each breath – I wish you were here!

  • Oh, please tell me!

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    Who am I to you please tell me

    If no one, then let me be free

    My fragile state, can’t you see?

    Tears in heart, on face –  a false glee

    Shown down, broken apart

    Shred into pieces, my timid heart

    Now no more, I have no strength

    To continue like this, another length

    So, let me know what you see for us

    A life apart, for one without this fuss! 

  • There is so much of you in me…!

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    No respite for me far from you

    Tears fall on my cheeks

    Like on petals drops of dew

    Friends call me a freak

    As I still long for you

    From your thoughts I am not free

    Foolish like me must be few

    Reality who cant see!

    Memories of us together

    Feel of your embrace

    In my heart will stay forever

    I still long to see your face

    That smile of yours moreover 

    Fills cheer in my sulky days

    Tiny fragments of us I remember

    Which leave me in a constant daze

    Frantically around me I look

    Your voice in me like a chime

    You fill most of my life’s book

    I’m woven with you through time

    This task to separate I undertook

    But your actions I still mime

    Looking at my reflection I shook

    Staring at me were you the most prime! 

  • Fake Friends…

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    I am not the one to do chit-chat, I like to do soulful talks

    A stride or two is not for me, I’m a companion for those long walks 

    Friends for now and then forgotten, is not my cup of tea

    A friend for me is a life-long thing, in times of need I don’t flee

    When you shed tears a steady shoulder, is what you’ll find in me

    A mirror to show you the truth always, an ear to listen I will be 

    When you feel tired from this tedious life, I’ll help you energize

    When you feel lost and confused my friend, I’ll try to give an advice wise

    Will try protect you against all vices and be your helping hand

    Whenever you’ll need me close and near, I’ll be there even across lands

    Friends to keep and friends to care, friends for me are life

    Not just in times of cheer, I stay along even in your strife

    Challenging the new age concept of what has started to be known as friendship

    Fake talks, matter of convenience, but behind your back you get stripped

    No that is not what friends should do, not that is not we deserve

    Friends for life, friends to care, your heart with them should stay preserved

    And those who hurt and are double-faced, and those who tell lies

    Beware – for they can betray and from them you can get surprise!

    Choose your friends wisely and if you feel you’ve been wronged

    Learn to get away in time, don’t let them around you throng!

  • Strength to move ahead…!

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    There are days when life seems a bouncer and you don’t know whether to duck or play

    There are days when life seems a monster and you feel totally aghast and in dismay

    There are days when life seems a burden and you don’t know how to breathe anymore

    There are days when life seems an unending test, for the results you’re no longer lured

    There are days when the clouds are dark and there is no speck of sunshine

    There are days when you have no energy to talk to someone or even to whine

    There are days when you don’t want to fight and just say that you’re wrong

    There are days when you feel your dream has crashed, to make life a melodious song

    There are days when even when you want to smile the tears suddenly show

    There are days when you fail to get up and continue anymore

    Life is one big roller coaster, ups and downs, we see it all

    Magic is that in testing times, a small speck of faith somehow befalls

    Which doesn’t let you give up in life and tells you anyway to carry on

    The truth is that if you catch that moment and not let it be a by gone 

    Slowly and steadily, towards better times you’ll start to tread

    Challenges will always stay, but you’ll somehow get the strength – to move ahead…! 

    And the one who doesn’t give up, and the one who carries on

    Is the one who ultimately wins, this life’s marathon! 

  • Tears & Rage…!

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     I fail to understand the logic behind

    Any reason I just fail to find

    Of why the atrocities were done

    Of why lives were snatched for fun

    Dreams were crashed, hearts were broken

    Homes were ruined, spirits were shaken

    Irreparable damage done to them

    There is no limit to condemn

    Taken by a sheer surprise

    Outlawed they became overnight

    Where to go and whom to ask

    Just breathing seemed a herculean task

    With prayers and their pride intact

    When mind was bereft of any tact

    To breathe became the sole objective

    Survival was the only motive

    Families got shattered and torn apart

    Many loved ones made to depart

    Lives lost were just a thing

    Dreams got tattered in a blink

    Friends turned away, insults were meted

    Those cruel hearts hardly fretted

    Seeing famished children, mothers said

    “How to feed them a little bread?!”

    Mercilessly and with no shame 

    Lives were taken on an excuse lame

    Men, women, young or old

    Who to ask, what support to hold!

    Just agonizing cries around

    Before they too got in pain drowned

    Why did no one bother I wonder?

    Why did God allow this blunder?

    On just reading about these horrid facts

    When my heart in a such a way reacts

    How would had they endured it all?

    I only look back entirely appalled 

    Who’s accountable for those who perished?

    Were they even sufficiently punished?

    Each molecule in me is in a rage

    Thinking how they lived in that horrid cage

    With questions so many I only whine

    Any reason for this my heart declines

    Wondering what was the design behind

    I only want few answers to find!

    Humans are meant to love and care

    Then how can someone show such dare

    Of plotting such a massacre 

    In God’s court how did he fare!

    When will we all understand

    Best religion is to offer a helping hand

    Stop the killings in the name of God

    By shedding blood you’ll never earn HIS nod

    Let’s  not forget, let’s remember always

    The sacrifices by those millions made

    Let’s  keep the fire burning within

    To build a world free of such sins! 

  • Still Close to Thee…!

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    In your eyes I saw the spark

    In my heart you made a mark

    Flutters of love in my heart you made

    Your scent in me will never fade

    Your voice so soothing made me yearn

    Your love so enchanting I wanted to earn

    In your embrace I found my peace

    In my jigsaw you were the missing piece

    With a smile so warm you welcomed me

    Setting me free you let me be me

    Listened to my childish banter

    Filled me with wisdom like a mentor

    You stayed along like a solid rock

    Your presence in my life forever locked

    Charmed by you I still feel blessed

    With your magic I am still possessed

    Stay where you are but remember me

    Far from you, but still very close to thee!

  • There’s God Only…!

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    Tired of playing my part

    Life seems to be falling apart

    No fun in my stride 

    No joy in my smile

    I don’t know how to learn this art

    Never felt so lonely and aghast

    It feels so tough to carry on 

    This pain in my heart for long borne

    Want to keep it aside and rest for a while 

    Before I continue on this arduous mile

    As I look around to find true friends

    I see only masks, to fakeness no end

    With whom to have a genuine talk? 

    Whose words are there without a mock?

    Jealousy, treachery and beguiled minds

    Honesty and loyalty and such tough finds

    Tired of dealing with so many such

    Want to retire, no other desire much

    Have learnt that it is up to me

    To copy them, or let it be

    Have to learn to live lonely

    ‘Coz for such like me, there’s God only!

  • Power of a Smile…! :)

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    A curve that sets things right

    Spreads cheer to whatever is in sight

    Removes gloom and sets mood alight

    Many a times it also ends a fight

    A simple thing it is which we forget

    To do every morning when we leave bed

    Which can make our day positive

    Fill us with joy and also mischief

    A Smile it is my dear friends

    Benefits of which have no ends

    A contagious thing it is for sure

    You try it, and many along you’ll lure

    It announces your arrival plesantly

    Those receiving it pass blessings silently

    For glum faces are many around to see

    One with smile fills others with glee 

    The least which we all can do I say

    Is to smile generously every day

    Along with you yourself feeling gay

    To those around bliss you’ll convey 

    So wear your smiles with pride

    And feel the strength in your stride

    Let it be your daily guide

    On how to keep your worries aside

    In tough times smile more

    Let not those troubles come to fore

    With a smile face all your challenges

    Let not those rough tide cause damages

    Smile your way into a happier you

    Let HIM guide you through your challenges in lieu! 

  • Do Good Anyways…

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    They say – when nothing goes right, go left
    But what to do when even there you feel bereft
    They say – do good and good will come back to you
    But what to do when nothing as such holds true
    They say – God is there to see and set right
    But what to do when it seems that truth is out of even HIS sight
    They say – every cloud has a silver lining
    But what to do when fake is every light that is shining
    They say – kindness is a language which doesn’t need words
    But what to do when it is trampled over and you’re declared a nerd
     
    In such a time I am pretty sure you will feel like giving up
    This world will seem a cruel place and you’ll find it tough to hold up
    You’ll want to retire from one and all and be alone to patch up
    The strewn pieces of your heart, so badly blown up!
     
    But even then with faith in your heart, as strong as steel
    Stand firm on your goodness and don’t allow them to steal-
    – Your lasting courage and let your goodness reveal
    ‘Coz ultimately IT IS goodness which will help you in your ordeal
     
    Such proverbs though loosely used and may seem unreal
    In this strange world of today, goodness may seem surreal
    But simplicity and genuineness how much ever ridiculed
    Ultimately they win, and eventually they rule!

  • Sometimes lonely is good…!

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    Strange is the world, stranger mankind

    Honest & true, are so tough to find

    Words & actions hardly match

    For simpletons, it is a rough catch

    In trying to decipher, you can lose your mind

    From taking on face value, I have long resigned

    No one around, whom I can lay trust on 

    In believing others, you’re considered a moron

    No ray of light to show there is hope

    This perilous mountain, to climb with no rope

    All seem to have a betraying mask on

    Lies are favoured, truths are frowned upon

    Strange is this world, stranger mankind

    To carry on here, you have to turn an eye  blind –

    To hypocrisy of people, which suffocates me to hell

    No one to inquire honestly if you’re well

    Just one I long for, whom I can trust blindly

    Who will care and be around, lovingly & honestly

    Who will not exploit, will not show off or use me

    With whom I can laugh, be myself and just carefree

    Too much to ask I guess, in this world of today

    Where you have to be like them, to find your way

    Not me, I am sorry, even if it means being lonely

    Even if on this path, I’ll be the one and only…

    Will tread on and find my peace at last

    Better than being constantly harassed! 

  • Caged by your memories…

    Today I saw something which reminded me of you

    Floating came your memories, as fresh as moments new

    Heart winced in pain as I tried to smile along

    Soul yearned for you, mindlessly singing your song

    Looking around for you, knowing you’re not there

    What bigger evidence of my misery than this can be there

    Missing you everyday, thinking of you each second

    I am nowhere in your thoughts, I can easily reckon!

    Carrying on along, trying to forget you

    Holding back my tears, sometimes letting them escape too

    Holding on to my heart which holds your memories precious

    I am setting myself again onto this cycle vicious

  • My dialogue with HIM

    “Why is it that in every relation only I have to give more

    Why is it that I have to struggle, a lot before reaching any shore

    Why is it that with young or old, only I have to show maturity

    Why is it that I have to look so hard, to find the same sincerity

    Why is it that I find myself, often bereft and stranded

    Why is it that I find myself, always taken for granted

    Why is it that my heart so pure, is shredded so badly apart

    Why is it those near and dear, before hurting don’t feel aghast

    Why is it that I find myself, alone and in tears

    Why is it that after doing everything, for me there is no one to hear”

    When I ask all of the above, to my beloved Father

    HE looks at me calmly, gives a smile without a bother

    HE asks me to calm down, to relax and to stop crying

    HE pats my head and very gently, wipes off those tears not drying

    “Not everyone my child, is blessed with a golden heart

    Not everyone my child, in this life knows the kind art

    Not everyone my child, is here to do my job

    Not everyone my child, through their acts my heart rob

    Feel blessed that you’re the one, amongst my very own

    Whom I know I can trust, to calm those who moan

    Feel blessed that you’re the one, who spread my cheer ahead

    Who can feel me within them, my word they spread

    Realise that yours the hand, through which I sometimes act

    Or sometimes through you I help, to show them the facts

    So wipe those freckles my child, for your struggles are the way

    Which will bring you closer to me, just keep following this ray

    Will you still complain, about those who’re not as you

    Will you not carry on my work, as you currently do

    I will love you no less, even if you decide to give up

    This struggle of being the good one, if you’re so fed up

    But if you decide to carry on, my work my dear child

    Then keep forgiving those, who don’t treat you so mild

    For they yet don’t understand, what you already do

    So keep leading the way, they surely will follow too

    And always remember my child, that I am and will surely be there

    To guide you, hold you, love you, you need not look elsewhere”

    With my heart full of gratitude, I bow down at HIS feet

    I feel embarrassed I tell HIM, that for complaining I’d come to meet

    “I very much will continue on the path that YOU’ve shown

    I feel proud of only one thing – that I am one of those you own

    Even though I’ll get hurt, in future as in past

    I promise YOU my Father, YOUR words will give me the stregth to last…

    YOUR words will give me the strength to last…

    YOUR words will give me the strength to last…”

  • Reminiscing…

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    And there I saw it again! The letter written by you to me

    Though already read a thousand times, each word was as if new to see

     

    Your perfect handwriting, your sensible choice of words

    Your incomparable wisdom which I was drawn towards

     

    It took me back in time and I found myself smiling

    As I thought of you and our time, the memories started piling

     

    Each one so crystal clear, till today I was surprised

    Holding that precious paper in my hands, for long I stayed hypnotized

     

    Before I could control, tears started to roll by

    And when the present got clear around, I myself felt a bit shy

     

    Hurriedly keeping you away, I tried to get back to now

    Trying hard to ignore, the sharp pain I felt anyhow

     

    The pain will subside the present will win, but I don’t know till when

    You will come alive so vividly, just by looking at those words from your pen! 

     

  • What to do…?

    Hurdle at my every step, hindrance at every thought I brew

    With challenges at every knock, I really don’t know what to do!

    Conversations leading nowhere, people turning glances away

    With so much negativity around, how to clearly see my way!

    Roadblocks on which I stumble, when a simple step I try to take

    With problems at every turn, my confidence is bound to shake!

    Planning & plotting in every mind, genuinity is getting rust

    With fake people around in ample, there is absolutely no mutual trust! 

    Aghast with what has become of us, I feel like taking a rapid retreat

    But how to forsake what I ought to do, how to forsake this to-do sheet! 

    Holding strong, trying not to give up, even in this tide so fast

    Praying for strength & keeping strong, wish this strength for me will last!

    Hoping that the world will see, more of goodness and less of deceive

    Hoping that people will understand, that spreading cheer gets results to reap! 

  • An Ode to my My Baba… My Guru… My Sai…!

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    Looking at YOU, I bow down my head

    Folding hands, I present my heart’s shreds

    Praying to YOU, I seek strength 

    To cross this life’s enormous length

    Seeking YOU, I start my day

    Thanking YOU, I see the last ray

    Thinking YOU, I act night & day

    Only YOUR teachings, paving my way

    YOUR presence in my life is the thing

    Which gives my timid heart such wings

    Which helps me soar above the tests

    In my quest to be YOUR very best

    YOUR love in my heart keeps it beating

    Ruled by the desire for the divine meeting

    YOUR enigmatic persona charms my mind

    YOUR calming smile, helps me unwind

    I love YOU from each heartbeat in me

    I desire YOU with every breath to be

    I want YOU in every sight that I see

    Only YOUR face is what gives me glee

    Embrace me now, don’t make me wait

    Engulf me now, in thyself so great

    Make me YOURS, completely my Lord

    Let me hear only YOUR melodious chord

    Love you my Baba, my Guru, my life

    With you along, I don’t care for strife

    I am YOUR child and want to merge in YOU

    In YOUR mighty rose, like a drop of dew! 

  • Frantic Routine

    Just running and working like a non-stop machine,

    Without much thought I am following the routine,

    Chaos and time pressure rule my every morning,

    No time to sit and enjoy a cuppa under the awning!

    I don’t drive my day, it’s the day which drives me,

    Running by the clock, is what has become of me!

    One after the other, there are things to be dealt with,

    Peaceful morning, has just become a myth!

    No time to laze around, sit quitely and yawn,

    Gotta splash water on my sleepy face, right at the dawn!

    Have to get on to things at once, else I’ll get late,

    Shout in frustation, no hands holding with my mate!

    Getting kids ready and setting the house in order,

    Preparing meals, tidying clothes, trying to sort the disorder

    Running frantically, I try to hold on to time

    The sound of the clock, an alarming chime

    Amongst this chaos, a thought tries to calm me

    Life is in this moment – enjoy and let things be

    Taking a breath deep, I try to calm the frantic mind

    I try not to thing ahead and focus on my peace to find!

  • Tears to rain…

    Where do these tears come from as I sit doing nothing

    Why when I try to relax, mind starts to think the same thing

    What is this sadness which creeps in?

    What is this pain hidden so deep within?

    Nothing to single out which is there amiss

    Yet there is something more which this heart does wish

    I say – “all that is there is good”

    But this silly heart hums what “should” and “could”

    In this struggle between me and my heart

    There is a lot of cajoling and a lot of art

    “Why didn’t you bother about me” questions my heart

    “You allowed people to trample over me” blames me my heart

    As I try to pacify this silly heart and reason with it

    I live the past pain again, bit by bit

    “For how long will you haunt me”, I question the pain

    Will I ever sit peacefully without these tears to rain?! 

  • You and Me

    There is no second to what you do, and how you care for me

    There is no second to who you are – so thoughtful and trustworthy

    There is no greater joy for me than to be along with you

    There is no bigger happiness, than to do things along with you

     

    There is so much comfort, when I have you there in life

    There is a loving guidance from you, whenever I face a strife

    There is so much symphony, in the way we together move

    There is a melody unparallel, on which we together groove

     

    No one can ever fill your shoes, or even come a close second

    No one can warm my heart the way you do, I reckon

    The friendship and the companionship that you provide to me

    Help me grow, help me learn, and most importantly – help me to be me! 

     

  • How do I live without you…!

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    This sadness doesn’t leave me,

    Heart seems to be brimming with it

    These tears don’t stop,

    Eyes seem to shed them bit by bit

    Smile is fading day by day,

    As you’re not in sight

    I am falling very weak,

    Without your hug so tight

    With you not around to pep me up,

    My mood doesn’t get any better

    Longing to hear your voice,

    For me and you to be together

    Had not envisaged a life without you,

    It hurts to live this way

    How much it pains my heart,

    I don’t even want to say

    Living with this pain every moment

    I try to look for a reason

    Probably after this pain to endure

    There will be a happy season